A melancholy et cetera
- I scheduled a week-long staycation for the week after Shadows game 4. Nothing to do with Shadows, but everything to do with how burnt out I am feeling on my day job--and the Memorial Day weekend made it easy to schedule.
- I got all the fake blood out of my Hahanzi shirt! The fact that it is black probably helps; there are probably remnants of the dye that you would see on a lighter color.
- Speaking of which, I am still in teen girl headspace. Dammit. I do not like this version of me. She is very needy and excessively melancholy.
- Haven't gotten much writing or submitting done in the past week or so. No surprise there, really :( I will get back to it, because I can't not (over any long period of time), but right now I'm feeling very discouraged. I realize I had put a ton of hope on Gods & Fathers, and now.... it looks a lot less hopeful. And while I suspect that given enough time and effort, I can be trad-published, I begin to ask myself if that's time and effort I really want to spend. I also worry that I'm entirely a writer and not at all a storyteller, which... yeah.
- The new statin I'm on, pravastatin, seems to cause a lot less muscle pain than the one I was on previously. I'm still in pain because I spent most of Sunday running around dressed like a giant scarab and swinging boffer weapons and falling down hard, but it's a lot better than I expected.
- I got all the fake blood out of my Hahanzi shirt! The fact that it is black probably helps; there are probably remnants of the dye that you would see on a lighter color.
- Speaking of which, I am still in teen girl headspace. Dammit. I do not like this version of me. She is very needy and excessively melancholy.
- Haven't gotten much writing or submitting done in the past week or so. No surprise there, really :( I will get back to it, because I can't not (over any long period of time), but right now I'm feeling very discouraged. I realize I had put a ton of hope on Gods & Fathers, and now.... it looks a lot less hopeful. And while I suspect that given enough time and effort, I can be trad-published, I begin to ask myself if that's time and effort I really want to spend. I also worry that I'm entirely a writer and not at all a storyteller, which... yeah.
- The new statin I'm on, pravastatin, seems to cause a lot less muscle pain than the one I was on previously. I'm still in pain because I spent most of Sunday running around dressed like a giant scarab and swinging boffer weapons and falling down hard, but it's a lot better than I expected.