well..
I guess I'm updating a min before I have some prayer time and then pack. I am fixing to make the long haul drive Saturday to Fort Worth, and I am actually looking forward to it. I love driving. I love going to a big city, though I will be kinda bored for a few days. Maybe I'll go to the zoo, explore more of the botanical gardens or explore more of fort Worth. I'd like to explore downtown. I do have a dentist appt. my dental hygenist is going to kill me. I've been brushing and floshing but haven't taken much of my gingi med...and I kinda ruined it in my car cause of the heat.
Anyway, I definitely need to see tricia. She sounds bored.
What's funny is....it used to be I never had people to do stuff with. but now there are so many people for me to do things with. I really love that. I really love that I have Adonia in my life...and Sang...and Angela back. Angela asked me to go to dinner with them tommorrow evening....that's so nice. I can't wait to see Alissa in pennsylvania. I can't wait to move into my new place, and I can't wait to come home and see my friends. I can't wait to be in a wedding in September....and to see everyone on campus. I think I will be a new...revitalized me. maybe..just maybe...I can learn to manage my stress better....a small step of improvement will be good, but having Adonia near me...and the new apartment, I think, will help. I'll still get to see Kristen every week, as she will be in some of my classes....
I need to wrap this up...but....I just...feel beautiful right now. not physically specifically...but generally. I feel...loved. Yesterday for instance, made all the difference in the world. I actually put off seeing this lady I know, named Tina, who is in the hospital. Part of me thought she'd be mad I hadn't been in touch much..I hadn't seen her since last year...or even called....partly cause I didn't want to talk about struggling with the dr. leach stuff..I had tried to talk with her about that one time a long time ago, but she kinda missed what I was trying to explain....and later on there were other struggles.. ..and partly cause I'd been so busy...
...but when I walked in the door....her voice..."Ohhh.." she said, looking at me as a daughter who had just come home...like a prodigal even in a regard....she was so happy to see me. my dad saw how she hugged me....and just loved me so much ...that it even touched him. I had brought her this tiny...insignificant present.....a bracelet.....and she just said, "what made you think of me?" as if she was unimportant..or even unworthy. she hugged me for a great length, kissed my cheek..... I'll never forget that. There are no words.
Anyway, I definitely need to see tricia. She sounds bored.
What's funny is....it used to be I never had people to do stuff with. but now there are so many people for me to do things with. I really love that. I really love that I have Adonia in my life...and Sang...and Angela back. Angela asked me to go to dinner with them tommorrow evening....that's so nice. I can't wait to see Alissa in pennsylvania. I can't wait to move into my new place, and I can't wait to come home and see my friends. I can't wait to be in a wedding in September....and to see everyone on campus. I think I will be a new...revitalized me. maybe..just maybe...I can learn to manage my stress better....a small step of improvement will be good, but having Adonia near me...and the new apartment, I think, will help. I'll still get to see Kristen every week, as she will be in some of my classes....
I need to wrap this up...but....I just...feel beautiful right now. not physically specifically...but generally. I feel...loved. Yesterday for instance, made all the difference in the world. I actually put off seeing this lady I know, named Tina, who is in the hospital. Part of me thought she'd be mad I hadn't been in touch much..I hadn't seen her since last year...or even called....partly cause I didn't want to talk about struggling with the dr. leach stuff..I had tried to talk with her about that one time a long time ago, but she kinda missed what I was trying to explain....and later on there were other struggles.. ..and partly cause I'd been so busy...
...but when I walked in the door....her voice..."Ohhh.." she said, looking at me as a daughter who had just come home...like a prodigal even in a regard....she was so happy to see me. my dad saw how she hugged me....and just loved me so much ...that it even touched him. I had brought her this tiny...insignificant present.....a bracelet.....and she just said, "what made you think of me?" as if she was unimportant..or even unworthy. she hugged me for a great length, kissed my cheek..... I'll never forget that. There are no words.