little update
I thought I'd update for a few minutes amidst my cleaning. It has been a busy busy day. I was up at around 6:45 and had to get my car looked at, and fixed---it was really expensive but it is great now. It was running ok but the engine light was coming on, and they found that one of my cylinders was backfiring and my brake pads had to be replaced because they were really really thin. Anyway, one of my injectors has to be replaced, and they did some general stuff like replacing my transmission fluid. The car sounds differenot now. It was really neat because the man I got was a Christian and we had some very short, but wonderful fellowship.
He was joking with me saying we needed to clean out my car (it was a mess) and I got the idea from a semi verbal noise that he was kidding. So I played along, and was like, 'yeah, I will have to clean that out..." Anyway, I get there, and he was like, well, I have the vacuum cleaner over there and the trashcan, do you want me to help you clean it out? That is NOT in his job description. it was so so nice. He didn't have to do that. It was hot, he was sweating. They washed the outside of my car...he took 30 dollars off my total (b/c I didn't take the free rental vehicle), and then lastly, while he was showing me how to keep my A/C on the right stuff so it was come out coolest......he was like, "I just want to leave you a word of encouragement. Just remember that no matter what you are going through that God works it all for good. There is no problem. You are a daughter of the King." That was just...wonderful to hear...and from a stranger at that.
That came at a nice time too cause later today I have been feeling rather down about some things. For one, in thinking about my grades, I didn't realize the requirements were per semester. I thought they were just overall in general, and overall in Psych classes. Anyway, that makes me a bit concerned about my psych gpa this semester. at the highest, I can make an A- and a B+. At the lowest I can make tow regular B's. The last possibility doesn't look like the end of the world but that wouldnt' make GPA requirements for this program so I am not sure entirely what that would mean. Likewise, a B + is an 88, it's not even an 87. I would at minimum be issued an academic warning but I am not sure what they would do if it is 2 courses and not one. I prayed today, and I am going to continue to pray about it. Grades should almost be in, but not sure when. I really don't want to be on academic probation at all, and certainly not worse.
Anyway, I think I accidentally hurt Kristen's feelings today because I thought she had forgotten we were going out tommorrow to celebrate my birthday, because she was talking on the phone with a friends, and it sounded like she was making plans with her. which she was, but she was just going to have her call her at 6, rather than do something at 6. but also she has forgotten or renigged on a couple of things lately, so....yeah, that hurt my feelings. I was not going to let another occurrence slip by. and now she is off to Jenna's house to spend the night randomly. *throws up hands* I always feel so awkward in some of this. are you spending time with Jenna because you realized you might be compacting me into your schedule tommorrow? I know she will probably work out rommorrow night too, which I expect. anyway....I'm not mad she's going to Jenna's...just a little dissapointed in general, but I'm just feeling depressed this evening. I'm tired, haven't have vitamins, haven't heard from kevin, which is ok, and am a little distraught over trying to plan my schedule this week...and then my grades and plus I had a crazy time driving today, went the wrong direction and was low on gas and had to find a way to cross back over on 20...and just everything. loneliness a little bit....frustration.
The shower was very nice on Sunday. Adonia really liked it I think. And she got a few cute lingerie peices, and a few things for her appartment, including some glasses she wanted that have been discontinued, so that is super awesome. Her friend Christy got her the CUTEST bride decorated tennis shoes that she wore at the party. the food was really complimented a lot, so that made me feel really good. I made a watermelon into a basket, and they really liked that, so that made me feel good too.
Anyway, Stacey is staying in Hattiesburg this summer and so I am glad. Walter will be there...and Sang. so that's nice. I need to cheer up, but for some reason it's really hard today. I guess I just am in a lonely stage, and tired/frustrated too. Sometimes I feel like all I do is encourage and lift up, and then I am left with nothing at times...not really nothing, but like with the shower, me buying myself a few things, and the car....my money is gone. and I still have to buy a few presents, which puts me going into my school money, though I know my dad will help with the car thing as much as he can. Anyway, I don't regret helping with the shower, I wish I had done a little less food cause people just didn't eat the meat and vegis much at all. but I know God wants me to bless other people.
Anyway, that's all I have to say for now, cept I emailed sir kevin a very very light, short email, to try and sort of give him the impression...yes, I want to be friends, but let's not be weird about things.. I am not obsessed with you. it was short, mentioned nothing about hanging out or even wanting to. I just hate when guys close up to you....just SAY SOMETHING. I am OK if you don't like me, but BE A FRIEND. anyway, I suppose it's my fault, but it was unintentional...*sigh* I just hate rejection on any level, and its the most awful when I feel like I'm in middle school again.
He was joking with me saying we needed to clean out my car (it was a mess) and I got the idea from a semi verbal noise that he was kidding. So I played along, and was like, 'yeah, I will have to clean that out..." Anyway, I get there, and he was like, well, I have the vacuum cleaner over there and the trashcan, do you want me to help you clean it out? That is NOT in his job description. it was so so nice. He didn't have to do that. It was hot, he was sweating. They washed the outside of my car...he took 30 dollars off my total (b/c I didn't take the free rental vehicle), and then lastly, while he was showing me how to keep my A/C on the right stuff so it was come out coolest......he was like, "I just want to leave you a word of encouragement. Just remember that no matter what you are going through that God works it all for good. There is no problem. You are a daughter of the King." That was just...wonderful to hear...and from a stranger at that.
That came at a nice time too cause later today I have been feeling rather down about some things. For one, in thinking about my grades, I didn't realize the requirements were per semester. I thought they were just overall in general, and overall in Psych classes. Anyway, that makes me a bit concerned about my psych gpa this semester. at the highest, I can make an A- and a B+. At the lowest I can make tow regular B's. The last possibility doesn't look like the end of the world but that wouldnt' make GPA requirements for this program so I am not sure entirely what that would mean. Likewise, a B + is an 88, it's not even an 87. I would at minimum be issued an academic warning but I am not sure what they would do if it is 2 courses and not one. I prayed today, and I am going to continue to pray about it. Grades should almost be in, but not sure when. I really don't want to be on academic probation at all, and certainly not worse.
Anyway, I think I accidentally hurt Kristen's feelings today because I thought she had forgotten we were going out tommorrow to celebrate my birthday, because she was talking on the phone with a friends, and it sounded like she was making plans with her. which she was, but she was just going to have her call her at 6, rather than do something at 6. but also she has forgotten or renigged on a couple of things lately, so....yeah, that hurt my feelings. I was not going to let another occurrence slip by. and now she is off to Jenna's house to spend the night randomly. *throws up hands* I always feel so awkward in some of this. are you spending time with Jenna because you realized you might be compacting me into your schedule tommorrow? I know she will probably work out rommorrow night too, which I expect. anyway....I'm not mad she's going to Jenna's...just a little dissapointed in general, but I'm just feeling depressed this evening. I'm tired, haven't have vitamins, haven't heard from kevin, which is ok, and am a little distraught over trying to plan my schedule this week...and then my grades and plus I had a crazy time driving today, went the wrong direction and was low on gas and had to find a way to cross back over on 20...and just everything. loneliness a little bit....frustration.
The shower was very nice on Sunday. Adonia really liked it I think. And she got a few cute lingerie peices, and a few things for her appartment, including some glasses she wanted that have been discontinued, so that is super awesome. Her friend Christy got her the CUTEST bride decorated tennis shoes that she wore at the party. the food was really complimented a lot, so that made me feel really good. I made a watermelon into a basket, and they really liked that, so that made me feel good too.
Anyway, Stacey is staying in Hattiesburg this summer and so I am glad. Walter will be there...and Sang. so that's nice. I need to cheer up, but for some reason it's really hard today. I guess I just am in a lonely stage, and tired/frustrated too. Sometimes I feel like all I do is encourage and lift up, and then I am left with nothing at times...not really nothing, but like with the shower, me buying myself a few things, and the car....my money is gone. and I still have to buy a few presents, which puts me going into my school money, though I know my dad will help with the car thing as much as he can. Anyway, I don't regret helping with the shower, I wish I had done a little less food cause people just didn't eat the meat and vegis much at all. but I know God wants me to bless other people.
Anyway, that's all I have to say for now, cept I emailed sir kevin a very very light, short email, to try and sort of give him the impression...yes, I want to be friends, but let's not be weird about things.. I am not obsessed with you. it was short, mentioned nothing about hanging out or even wanting to. I just hate when guys close up to you....just SAY SOMETHING. I am OK if you don't like me, but BE A FRIEND. anyway, I suppose it's my fault, but it was unintentional...*sigh* I just hate rejection on any level, and its the most awful when I feel like I'm in middle school again.