trust is a knife in the back
I hate how I place others so far above myself that I forget how to make myself happy.
I espcially hate how I am constantly doing so much for other people, and not receiving any sort of acknowledment. I would never ask any of you to pay me back, and you all know that, But mabye some kind gestures on occasion would be nice so at least I know everything I'm doing is being appreciated and worth-while.
Basically what I'm getting at is, I'm tired of being so fucking nice to people. I'm tired of giving and giving, and not feel like anyone is doing the same for me. I'm tired of being there for people, but having no one here for me. Maybe what I will do is stop giving people money when they need it, stop giving people rides, stop trying to help out someone in need, unless they're willing to give me a helping hand when I need it.
It's not that hard to make a simple phone call to break plans if something comes up. But to say, "I'll call you back in five minutes", and then I don't here from any of you, it fucking hurts. More-so now than any other time simply because I had done so much for you two in this past week than I have done for myself. I even got ready to go. Now I just feel stupid and embarressed that people who call themselves my friend would be so quick to not even call me back.
There are two exceptions to what was stated about, and those exceptions are Megan Lonczak, and Kelly Ganczarz (please come home, I really miss you).
Alright, I'm done with shit.
:::EDIT:::
Everything was resolved.
I espcially hate how I am constantly doing so much for other people, and not receiving any sort of acknowledment. I would never ask any of you to pay me back, and you all know that, But mabye some kind gestures on occasion would be nice so at least I know everything I'm doing is being appreciated and worth-while.
Basically what I'm getting at is, I'm tired of being so fucking nice to people. I'm tired of giving and giving, and not feel like anyone is doing the same for me. I'm tired of being there for people, but having no one here for me. Maybe what I will do is stop giving people money when they need it, stop giving people rides, stop trying to help out someone in need, unless they're willing to give me a helping hand when I need it.
It's not that hard to make a simple phone call to break plans if something comes up. But to say, "I'll call you back in five minutes", and then I don't here from any of you, it fucking hurts. More-so now than any other time simply because I had done so much for you two in this past week than I have done for myself. I even got ready to go. Now I just feel stupid and embarressed that people who call themselves my friend would be so quick to not even call me back.
There are two exceptions to what was stated about, and those exceptions are Megan Lonczak, and Kelly Ganczarz (please come home, I really miss you).
Alright, I'm done with shit.
:::EDIT:::
Everything was resolved.