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so i went to the seminar last night for the gastric bypass surgery. i found out a lot of useful information. some things i wasnt too thriled about. but that isnt going to stop me. those who know me well know that when i have my mind made up there isnt much that can be done to change it. food is going to become a major issue for the rest of my life. i will have to drink protien shakes so that my hair doesnt fall out! i learned that protien definciency causes hair to fallout. and i will instantly become lactose intolerant so i have to take a lactate pill. ok.. and i have to eat only clear liquid for 3-4 weeks then pureed food for 7 weeks then i can move on to solid food as tolerated. i can do the food thing. what im thinking about is i get thirsty all the time. i chug 8 ounces of water all day. im gonna be doing the whole swish and spit thing. im going to be like one if the arch angeles from dogma. lol. im worried and nervous but also excited. its also going to take a while for paper work to process with insurence so that means it will be about a month or two till the surgery, maybe more. so that means i have a lil bit of time to pig out. heh heh and pigging out is what i am doing. i ate a whole frozen pizza the other day. mmmmmm i love pizza.
when me and my mama were at the seminar i realized i was the youngest and the lightest person there that was wanting the surgery. heh heh i never felt so skinny as when i was wedged between these two biggies. im trying not to think about all the down sides to the surgery. and obvously so was the doctor bc he didnt tell us the bad things. we kinda had to drag it out of him. when he was showing slides of the surgery procedure he kinda wized thru them real fast so we couldnt get too good of a look at them. i have to admit even i cringed when i saw them. and i have seen some serous shit that never phased me. i mean come on, ive seen my own stomach opened up and shit. blech.
i didnt see ben tonight. that made me sad. i was hanging out with my friend jim and i missed his call. jim broke his foot so i went over there to keep him company. i had fun.
things between me and ben are progressing. slowly but surely. he calls me everyday and tells me what his plans are and how we can fit me and him hanging out into them. im like a stupid school girl sometimes. i wait all day for his call and after we hang up im all smiles. he asked me how the seminar went and said he was thinking about me all day wondering if it went well. i couldnt believe he even remembered i went. he is such a nice guy.
list of qualities that ben possesses
- strong physically and mentally
- good hygene
- not dirt poor (has job)
- can physically please me
- can hold a decent conversatinon with me
- understands my limits due to my health
- is suportive
- can protect me when i need protecting
- family man
- can make me laugh
hes not ready to jump into a relationship. he just got out of a shitty 3 year relationship with the devil. but that is ok bc i am enjoying our time that we are having now. i still have little crushes on other guys here and there that i doubt will go anywhere but it is fun to secretly crush.
i think i have written enough. i cant sleep. i wish i could jsut crawl in bed with ben. he wouldnt even notice bc he is such a deep sleeper. and what a snorer. thank god i can jsut turn my hearing aid off and it goes away. so no harm done. lol. that is one of the plus sides of being hearing impared.
when me and my mama were at the seminar i realized i was the youngest and the lightest person there that was wanting the surgery. heh heh i never felt so skinny as when i was wedged between these two biggies. im trying not to think about all the down sides to the surgery. and obvously so was the doctor bc he didnt tell us the bad things. we kinda had to drag it out of him. when he was showing slides of the surgery procedure he kinda wized thru them real fast so we couldnt get too good of a look at them. i have to admit even i cringed when i saw them. and i have seen some serous shit that never phased me. i mean come on, ive seen my own stomach opened up and shit. blech.
i didnt see ben tonight. that made me sad. i was hanging out with my friend jim and i missed his call. jim broke his foot so i went over there to keep him company. i had fun.
things between me and ben are progressing. slowly but surely. he calls me everyday and tells me what his plans are and how we can fit me and him hanging out into them. im like a stupid school girl sometimes. i wait all day for his call and after we hang up im all smiles. he asked me how the seminar went and said he was thinking about me all day wondering if it went well. i couldnt believe he even remembered i went. he is such a nice guy.
list of qualities that ben possesses
- strong physically and mentally
- good hygene
- not dirt poor (has job)
- can physically please me
- can hold a decent conversatinon with me
- understands my limits due to my health
- is suportive
- can protect me when i need protecting
- family man
- can make me laugh
hes not ready to jump into a relationship. he just got out of a shitty 3 year relationship with the devil. but that is ok bc i am enjoying our time that we are having now. i still have little crushes on other guys here and there that i doubt will go anywhere but it is fun to secretly crush.
i think i have written enough. i cant sleep. i wish i could jsut crawl in bed with ben. he wouldnt even notice bc he is such a deep sleeper. and what a snorer. thank god i can jsut turn my hearing aid off and it goes away. so no harm done. lol. that is one of the plus sides of being hearing impared.