I suck
well everything is shitty. ITs always shitty. I hate my life so much. My so called friends ashton and jordon told me that they were gonna pick me up and we were all gonna go to a show in pensacola tonight. But the show starts in an hour, and they arent answering their phone. Why dosent anyone love me? my parents dont love me, my boyfriend dosent love me, and now i know that my friends dont love me. They dont even care about me. Whats wrong with me? I got all dressed up. did my hair and my makeup im wearing heals and fishnets and i got all excited, but only to be let down. Im always let down. everything i do i get let down. I HATE ME! I feel like shit. People dont realize that the littlest things that seem like they dont matter to them, May really bother someone else. every action has an effect. Chances are if you blow off your friend and they know about it then thats pretty fucked up. Everything in my life is always fucked up. I want to die. I hate living in this house, I hate school, i hate everything. My friends have to take place of my family. because iv never had one. But when my friends abandon me too. Its too much for me to handle. If they dont come soon... im liable to hurt myself. Until Next Time...