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Earlier today I was thinking about certain moments in my life where I can actually pinpoint the second where a different action or response would have completely altered my entire life. One significant moment many years back haunted me for a very long time. Since then there has only been two really important times where I can tell that things would have been different...
But then again, maybe things wouldnt have been different. Maybe the end result would have been the same, just under slightly different circumstances. I'm not sure really.
But I cant help but think about those moments and wish I could have done things differently. If only I had stuck with the original plan... what if??
But then again, there are moments in my life where I thank the god that i dont believe in that I chose what i did. Just think, if i hadnt gotten heads on the coin toss I wouldnt have come to UNH... if i hadnt skipped that party i wouldnt have met the people i did...
I dunno.
One of those moments where life would have been different is the circumstance under which I met Corey, the boy from camping. Actually, is was several things that wouldnt have happened had thigns not gone wrong. If everythign had gone as planned, i never would have met him.
Not to get ahead of myself and say that things are golden between us. But, they are good. That kid is amazing...
He loves Weezer, I love weezer.
He loves fishing, I love fishing.
His favorite ice creams are mint chocolate chip and peppermint stick. SO are mine.
He loves Nerf Herder and his favorite song of theirs is Golfshirt. I love Nerf Herder and my favorite song of theirs is golfshirt.
He plays guitar. I wish i played guitar and lvoe boys who do.
And my favorite thing about him is how he thinks about me. He signs online to ask me if he can call me. He signs on just to tell me he's gotta send me this song he loves cause he thinks i'll like it. That means a great deal to me.
I honestly dont know if anything will happen because he is far away and he goes to a hard school and takes ridiculously hard classes. But, at the very least, he makes me happy and he makes me feel good and thats just what I need :)
He sent me the cutest pictures ever tonight. Seriously, that boy is so fabulous.
Happy thoughts, happy thoughts.
But then again, maybe things wouldnt have been different. Maybe the end result would have been the same, just under slightly different circumstances. I'm not sure really.
But I cant help but think about those moments and wish I could have done things differently. If only I had stuck with the original plan... what if??
But then again, there are moments in my life where I thank the god that i dont believe in that I chose what i did. Just think, if i hadnt gotten heads on the coin toss I wouldnt have come to UNH... if i hadnt skipped that party i wouldnt have met the people i did...
I dunno.
One of those moments where life would have been different is the circumstance under which I met Corey, the boy from camping. Actually, is was several things that wouldnt have happened had thigns not gone wrong. If everythign had gone as planned, i never would have met him.
Not to get ahead of myself and say that things are golden between us. But, they are good. That kid is amazing...
He loves Weezer, I love weezer.
He loves fishing, I love fishing.
His favorite ice creams are mint chocolate chip and peppermint stick. SO are mine.
He loves Nerf Herder and his favorite song of theirs is Golfshirt. I love Nerf Herder and my favorite song of theirs is golfshirt.
He plays guitar. I wish i played guitar and lvoe boys who do.
And my favorite thing about him is how he thinks about me. He signs online to ask me if he can call me. He signs on just to tell me he's gotta send me this song he loves cause he thinks i'll like it. That means a great deal to me.
I honestly dont know if anything will happen because he is far away and he goes to a hard school and takes ridiculously hard classes. But, at the very least, he makes me happy and he makes me feel good and thats just what I need :)
He sent me the cutest pictures ever tonight. Seriously, that boy is so fabulous.
Happy thoughts, happy thoughts.