11 years of having this thing...
Hello there lovely people of LJ. I created this in 2003 with great intent on updating everyday. That didn't happen. Why? Myspace came and went and so has facebook. I fell out of the habit that I loved so much which is updating this journal. I have currently taken everyone off my friends list but myself although I am not making any posts private. As of today I decided to leave facebook. I need a better outlet. I need to do healthy things instead of reading about negative things and getting entertainment from others misery. So here I am! If I feel the urge to get on facebook I will update here instead :)!
Who am I? I am Beverly Elisabeth Huynh. A native american, black, puerto rican, irish, french mutt that is married to a Vietnamese/Cambodian man. I am not straight although I am a woman married to a man. I am what some would call pansexual. No it's not a faze and no I don't say I am that just because it's popular. I was born this way as Lady gaga would say. My first kiss was from a girl although for years I would pretend it was from a guy. I have been with gay men, women, straight men, and a transgender female (all my Hardin folks know who that was, poor sod). How was I with a gay man you ask? Easily! He was wanting to try to be in a relationship with a woman because he thought I was the nicest person he ever met. But that didn't work out because we both knew he just couldn't do it although it did last 6 months.
My husband and I at my friends birthday party...
On to other things though...I currently live in Houston Texas in the U.S. but was born and raised in Montana. My favorites is net! animal=giraffe. color=pink. music=everything! I like a lot of stuff but I never tell people everything that I like because people tend to feel like I only like things because others like them or that I am trying to steal what they like. Not anymore though. I FUCKING LOVE THE GREAT GATSBY, LEONARDO & ZOMBIES DAMMIT!
My dream since I was a girl was to be an actress. I am currently in college although I am in my thirties! I procrastinated...I haven't been well mentally at all so I was more focusing my energies on acceptance than trying to better myself as a human. I have always wanted to live in the big city although I am currently wanting to build myself up and move where I can just be free of everything and everyone with chickens and my cats. I have two cats. Keyoshi Mitsu Huynh and Hitomi Dioni Huynh.
Keyoshi being cute!
I don't know where my life is going to lead because everyday I change my mind. The only thing that has really been a constant is my husband of 6 years. Yes I met him online. WE have had our ups and downs life a lot of marriages but mostly because we both have issues our fights tend to be worse than most people. No hitting each other of course but the yelling gets so out of hand at times the police or security have been called.
I was married once before and that didn't work out very well. I wanted for a long time to just get out and leave but didn't have to courage to until a woman came into my life that I will never forget. She helped me to see that I was giving 100% and he was barely giving 10% if that. She also helped me to see that he had been cheating for a long time. My next update will be a letter to him.
I want to be able to share anything and everything on here. No matter what others think or say. So now onto my beliefs. My friends may shun me over this but this is for me not them. I am not a religious person(christianity/main stream stuff. I am what people call a truther aka I believe in Reptilians and Annunaki. You will call me crazy but I no longer care. I just want to be me. Who I am without all the horrible mean names. You can have your beliefs and I can have mine. I no longer want to spend any time and energy trying to get people to believe what I believe. It is not worth it. I will though chuckle everytime someone finds the truth and tries to show me. Yes that instance has happened already several times. In the past 15 years I have tried warning people about different things like diet soda, monsanto, ect. It just isn't worth my time and energy because not one person is going to shy away from anything they believe until it is all over. So this blog will not have much on this subject.
Who is my god? Some will roll their eyes but I am. I know it sounds narcicistic but it's true. If I look to someone else to make me feel better it really isn't going to happen. I need to take control of my life instead of allowing myself to hold onto other things. No one is going to help me or you and in the end did we do as much as we could to be able to live a full life? Hopefully the answer is yes.
Alright I am tired and drained so here is my ending.
Who am I? I am Beverly Elisabeth Huynh. A native american, black, puerto rican, irish, french mutt that is married to a Vietnamese/Cambodian man. I am not straight although I am a woman married to a man. I am what some would call pansexual. No it's not a faze and no I don't say I am that just because it's popular. I was born this way as Lady gaga would say. My first kiss was from a girl although for years I would pretend it was from a guy. I have been with gay men, women, straight men, and a transgender female (all my Hardin folks know who that was, poor sod). How was I with a gay man you ask? Easily! He was wanting to try to be in a relationship with a woman because he thought I was the nicest person he ever met. But that didn't work out because we both knew he just couldn't do it although it did last 6 months.
My husband and I at my friends birthday party...
On to other things though...I currently live in Houston Texas in the U.S. but was born and raised in Montana. My favorites is net! animal=giraffe. color=pink. music=everything! I like a lot of stuff but I never tell people everything that I like because people tend to feel like I only like things because others like them or that I am trying to steal what they like. Not anymore though. I FUCKING LOVE THE GREAT GATSBY, LEONARDO & ZOMBIES DAMMIT!
My dream since I was a girl was to be an actress. I am currently in college although I am in my thirties! I procrastinated...I haven't been well mentally at all so I was more focusing my energies on acceptance than trying to better myself as a human. I have always wanted to live in the big city although I am currently wanting to build myself up and move where I can just be free of everything and everyone with chickens and my cats. I have two cats. Keyoshi Mitsu Huynh and Hitomi Dioni Huynh.
Keyoshi being cute!
I don't know where my life is going to lead because everyday I change my mind. The only thing that has really been a constant is my husband of 6 years. Yes I met him online. WE have had our ups and downs life a lot of marriages but mostly because we both have issues our fights tend to be worse than most people. No hitting each other of course but the yelling gets so out of hand at times the police or security have been called.
I was married once before and that didn't work out very well. I wanted for a long time to just get out and leave but didn't have to courage to until a woman came into my life that I will never forget. She helped me to see that I was giving 100% and he was barely giving 10% if that. She also helped me to see that he had been cheating for a long time. My next update will be a letter to him.
I want to be able to share anything and everything on here. No matter what others think or say. So now onto my beliefs. My friends may shun me over this but this is for me not them. I am not a religious person(christianity/main stream stuff. I am what people call a truther aka I believe in Reptilians and Annunaki. You will call me crazy but I no longer care. I just want to be me. Who I am without all the horrible mean names. You can have your beliefs and I can have mine. I no longer want to spend any time and energy trying to get people to believe what I believe. It is not worth it. I will though chuckle everytime someone finds the truth and tries to show me. Yes that instance has happened already several times. In the past 15 years I have tried warning people about different things like diet soda, monsanto, ect. It just isn't worth my time and energy because not one person is going to shy away from anything they believe until it is all over. So this blog will not have much on this subject.
Who is my god? Some will roll their eyes but I am. I know it sounds narcicistic but it's true. If I look to someone else to make me feel better it really isn't going to happen. I need to take control of my life instead of allowing myself to hold onto other things. No one is going to help me or you and in the end did we do as much as we could to be able to live a full life? Hopefully the answer is yes.
Alright I am tired and drained so here is my ending.