Deep thoughts
This was an interesting weekend. There has been a lot going on in my life lately, I haven't been posting it because I still don't know what to make of it all, plus I hate sounding whiny or bitchy or depressing. (but here goes)
I have been having weird health issues again. It seems like every few years my body turns against me and something weird goes on. First it was a brain tumor, then a lymph node tumor, then the gallbladder, etc. etc. This time I've been extremely tired and run down, no energy, many things I eat make me sick, and I've been having strange pains in different parts of my body. I've been having a million tests, and they can't find anything, except in my last CT scan they found "something" in one of my kidneys. The radiologist didn't know what it was, so they sent me to a specialist, who didn't know what it was. He said that it MAY be some weird tumor, or it "probably isn't cancer, but I can't say that for sure", but he just doesn't know. They want me to wait 4 months and have another CT scan to see if it's changed. Normally that would be OK, but for some reason that doesn't sit well with me. Anyway, I am going to see a different Dr. next week to see if I can get any answers.
In better news, one of my cousins turned 30 this weekend. He had a big family dinner at Bucca De Beppo in Lynn. on Friday night. Now my ENTIRE family hasn't been together for many years. (story for another day) so it was a little weird, but it was ok. I sat at a table with my other cousin and his girlfriend, who we all LOVE. We have all been hoping that they would get married eventually, but I had no idea that there were any plans to do that anytime soon. He told me half way through dinner that he had put a deposit down on a ring for her and was just waiting to ask her! I am SO excited! This is great news. I just love this girl. Bad news is, he doesn't want me to tell anyone....ARGH! I hate not being able to share good news! But that was very exciting news, I really love this girl and can't wait for her to become a part of our family. (my cousins are like brothers to me)
Today I had to work. We took Mom some breakfast and a fuschia, then I went to the office for a few hours. After work we went back to Mom & Dad's for dinner, and right before we sat down to eat I got a phone call from Bristol. She told me that she is pregnant! I was so excited. Actually, I have a lot of different emotions about that. I am really excited to be "Aunt Lisa", but at the same time, I always thought that she and I would get pregnant together and have our kids about the same time. There is no way I can get pregnant right now, not with the weird health issues, and the fact that we want to buy a house before we have kids. So I guess I'm a little sad as well. Plus I think that this will change a lot of things. I know that my happiness far exceeds the other weird emotions I'm having over this, and I had no idea that her getting pregnant would make me think about all these things. I'm wondering if I'm getting too old to have kids. I'm 31...I will be 33 or 34 by the time we think about having them, and I don't know if that's going to be weird to have kids that late. I always figured I'd have my children by the time I was 30. I barely got married by the time I was 30! I have been thinking about that a lot lately. So her news is wonderful, it really is, and I can't wait to see that little girl or boy come into this world and be a part of it's life. My other friends that have kids I don't see that often, but this is going to be completely different. Bristol and I aren't just like sisters, but she even works with me now (as a loan officer) so I see her almost every day. I guess I'm glad she gets to go through it first and I can see what it's like for her...since actually being pregnant is the one thing that scares me to death.
Anyway, have I rambled enough? Yes. I have. Time to go lay on the couch and watch TV with my husband.
BTW, congrats are in order to Miss Gennie as well for her pregnancy news. Something is in the water I'm telling you.
And also to Miss Molly and Carrie...you are the reason that I know I want to have kids. Just looking at Molly's pictures brings such joy. She is the most adorable little girl ever. Thank you for always bringing a smile to my face. I can't wait to actually meet her someday soon!
I have been having weird health issues again. It seems like every few years my body turns against me and something weird goes on. First it was a brain tumor, then a lymph node tumor, then the gallbladder, etc. etc. This time I've been extremely tired and run down, no energy, many things I eat make me sick, and I've been having strange pains in different parts of my body. I've been having a million tests, and they can't find anything, except in my last CT scan they found "something" in one of my kidneys. The radiologist didn't know what it was, so they sent me to a specialist, who didn't know what it was. He said that it MAY be some weird tumor, or it "probably isn't cancer, but I can't say that for sure", but he just doesn't know. They want me to wait 4 months and have another CT scan to see if it's changed. Normally that would be OK, but for some reason that doesn't sit well with me. Anyway, I am going to see a different Dr. next week to see if I can get any answers.
In better news, one of my cousins turned 30 this weekend. He had a big family dinner at Bucca De Beppo in Lynn. on Friday night. Now my ENTIRE family hasn't been together for many years. (story for another day) so it was a little weird, but it was ok. I sat at a table with my other cousin and his girlfriend, who we all LOVE. We have all been hoping that they would get married eventually, but I had no idea that there were any plans to do that anytime soon. He told me half way through dinner that he had put a deposit down on a ring for her and was just waiting to ask her! I am SO excited! This is great news. I just love this girl. Bad news is, he doesn't want me to tell anyone....ARGH! I hate not being able to share good news! But that was very exciting news, I really love this girl and can't wait for her to become a part of our family. (my cousins are like brothers to me)
Today I had to work. We took Mom some breakfast and a fuschia, then I went to the office for a few hours. After work we went back to Mom & Dad's for dinner, and right before we sat down to eat I got a phone call from Bristol. She told me that she is pregnant! I was so excited. Actually, I have a lot of different emotions about that. I am really excited to be "Aunt Lisa", but at the same time, I always thought that she and I would get pregnant together and have our kids about the same time. There is no way I can get pregnant right now, not with the weird health issues, and the fact that we want to buy a house before we have kids. So I guess I'm a little sad as well. Plus I think that this will change a lot of things. I know that my happiness far exceeds the other weird emotions I'm having over this, and I had no idea that her getting pregnant would make me think about all these things. I'm wondering if I'm getting too old to have kids. I'm 31...I will be 33 or 34 by the time we think about having them, and I don't know if that's going to be weird to have kids that late. I always figured I'd have my children by the time I was 30. I barely got married by the time I was 30! I have been thinking about that a lot lately. So her news is wonderful, it really is, and I can't wait to see that little girl or boy come into this world and be a part of it's life. My other friends that have kids I don't see that often, but this is going to be completely different. Bristol and I aren't just like sisters, but she even works with me now (as a loan officer) so I see her almost every day. I guess I'm glad she gets to go through it first and I can see what it's like for her...since actually being pregnant is the one thing that scares me to death.
Anyway, have I rambled enough? Yes. I have. Time to go lay on the couch and watch TV with my husband.
BTW, congrats are in order to Miss Gennie as well for her pregnancy news. Something is in the water I'm telling you.
And also to Miss Molly and Carrie...you are the reason that I know I want to have kids. Just looking at Molly's pictures brings such joy. She is the most adorable little girl ever. Thank you for always bringing a smile to my face. I can't wait to actually meet her someday soon!