i just heard
Yuta and I got together tonight for dinner after work. He was fretting over his FOREX accounts. haha
I told him about my uncertainties. And he told me something...
After our last dinner party (last month), we went to a Shimokitazawa bar. The guy im dating told Yuta that if I werent at the bar that night that he's be looking for a nice girl to pick up.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yuta says that this is good...that my guy likes me. I gaped at Yuta. WHAT!? Number ! - WHY would he say this to a good friend of mine - doesnt he know people talk? And --It means that im just the entertainment for the day and any old woman will do! That means that anytime he says hes going clubbing, he's looking for a break. (He just went to Kyoto 2 weeks ago to go clubbing :( ) My heart shattered on the floor. Not what i need right now. not at all.
I dont know what to do with this information. I dont wanna throw this guys face, like a soap opera, but all this uncertainty and distrust ive been feeling...was it coming from me or some sixth sense?
well, this comment was made between guys, when my guy was drunk -- so maybe he was trying to seem cool? and this was before Golden week when he took me on a roadtrip with his really good friends and spent most of the time with me....watching Dexter and cooking. And him getting more affectionate and relaxed.
But, its a wall again. Distrust has been replaced. We're supposed to see a movie this weekend..since it didnt work out last weekend. I just dont know. No trust. No openness. No love. the end.
I told him about my uncertainties. And he told me something...
After our last dinner party (last month), we went to a Shimokitazawa bar. The guy im dating told Yuta that if I werent at the bar that night that he's be looking for a nice girl to pick up.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yuta says that this is good...that my guy likes me. I gaped at Yuta. WHAT!? Number ! - WHY would he say this to a good friend of mine - doesnt he know people talk? And --It means that im just the entertainment for the day and any old woman will do! That means that anytime he says hes going clubbing, he's looking for a break. (He just went to Kyoto 2 weeks ago to go clubbing :( ) My heart shattered on the floor. Not what i need right now. not at all.
I dont know what to do with this information. I dont wanna throw this guys face, like a soap opera, but all this uncertainty and distrust ive been feeling...was it coming from me or some sixth sense?
well, this comment was made between guys, when my guy was drunk -- so maybe he was trying to seem cool? and this was before Golden week when he took me on a roadtrip with his really good friends and spent most of the time with me....watching Dexter and cooking. And him getting more affectionate and relaxed.
But, its a wall again. Distrust has been replaced. We're supposed to see a movie this weekend..since it didnt work out last weekend. I just dont know. No trust. No openness. No love. the end.