I iz alive, more or less.
● Reason I've been far from LJ and Twitter recently: I watched Buffy, the Vampire Slayer again, from the first episode of the first season to the last episode of the last season, all in two weeks, more or less. It's been pretty tiring, to be honest (I guess it's obvious, if you watch, like, six episodes per day), but God it was worth it. There were things I had totally forgotten. Like how cute the relationship between Angel and Buffy is, and how funny Angel is, in particular. I was very, very young when they first aired first season on tv, and having lived my best years shipping Spuffy like crazy (something I totally did again and I'm still doing, as my new layout will probably show you *g*) I had totally forget how cute they were together. I started to hate Angel for reasons I can't actually remember, and it's been pretty great to have the possibility to watch the show again from its beginning, taking my time to look at it with different and more mature eyes, it gave me the chance to love it entirely, and more deeply than I ever did. And despite I remembered very well especially the last two seasons, it's been so intense to watch them again right after the first five. It's been a pretty great experience, to be honest, that kind of sensation you feel when you stay away from something so long you almost forget how much you like it, and then you just come back and you discover not only that you still like it, but that you like it even more ♥ (And I'll end it here, before I go all emotional and sappy.)
● bigbangitalia's back! It's so great to have the chance to be the one (with el_defe and faechan, of course, cos there's nothing I can do without them ♥) to manage it, this year ♥ Not that I complain about the ex-mods, but they didn't seem to be interested in taking care of it again, and it'd be a pity to lose it like this, since it's one of the funniest thing I did last year. If you're interested, well, bigbangitalia, bigbangitalia, bigbangitalia!
● Also, liebeslider's working again! I totally felt the need to revamp it and open it to a larger range of fanworks, so I had to reorganize it entirely and I hope you like it :)
● Don't wanna talk about Inter XD I'd really like to rant about Inter, but I kind of feel (and know) it'd be totally useless, so I'll just let the summer pass, you know, and see what happens. Atm, I'm starting to think Douglas won't go anywhere -- which is good -- and Mario will be the "big name" Massimo said he should have to sacrifice and everything -- which is less good, or better, isn't good at all -- and I could rant for hours, really, about this and that, but after all new kits are sexy (even if it seems I'm the only one who likes them XD), Coutinho's cute, Davide's working in group again and the Grinch is just one of the chubbiest things ever, I'm happy like this, don't wanna think about anything else.
● My brother's coming home in two days and, as much as I'm happy to see him again, I don't really know if this is going to, you know, work. He's been away so long and he already told me on the phone that he's got no will to come, he's just coming cos he has to and he's got nothing to do in Rome anymore. This is incredibly sad. We've already talked about this thing and the fact that one of the reasons he moved away is that he couldn't stand anymore the atmosphere he breathed here, always surrounded by familiar problems and things to do for the family and the house and the mess and the relatives and everything. It's horrible to hear him say "I don't really wanna come back cos I know that I won't be able to just relax and it's going to be all problems, problems, problems, as usual", and it's even more horrible having to say him he's right, he's just going to find problems, cos, you know, that's how it is. We're having problems with water here and I don't know if we're going to have it again by the time he's here. Our television broke and we're definitely not going to have it fixed in two days. And all the usual problems with dad and everything -- really, how can I blame him when he says he doesn't want to come back? And how can I blame him when he says to me I should go away to? But, at the same time, how can I leave? How can I just leave mom with all the problems and the things to fix and the places to go and the money that are never enough? I know I can't solve things, but at least while I'm here I can help, even if nothing I do seems to be enough, never. *heavy sigh*
I don't know, I just feel like this every time my brother comes back, because it's like he's going on with his life, becoming someone, while I stay here, stuck to my mom and family and don't do anything just for myself. He's just living for himself only and I can't, I don't even want to, I wouldn't want to live away from home, I think, but everything's so confused in my mind whenever I try to think about this all. I feel like I need time to think about myself and decide something, but I never take this time, I just waste it.
Ok, this is going too far away from where I started, I didn't want to. I'm happy he's coming back, though. I've been missing him so much, recently. ♥
● bigbangitalia's back! It's so great to have the chance to be the one (with el_defe and faechan, of course, cos there's nothing I can do without them ♥) to manage it, this year ♥ Not that I complain about the ex-mods, but they didn't seem to be interested in taking care of it again, and it'd be a pity to lose it like this, since it's one of the funniest thing I did last year. If you're interested, well, bigbangitalia, bigbangitalia, bigbangitalia!
● Also, liebeslider's working again! I totally felt the need to revamp it and open it to a larger range of fanworks, so I had to reorganize it entirely and I hope you like it :)
● Don't wanna talk about Inter XD I'd really like to rant about Inter, but I kind of feel (and know) it'd be totally useless, so I'll just let the summer pass, you know, and see what happens. Atm, I'm starting to think Douglas won't go anywhere -- which is good -- and Mario will be the "big name" Massimo said he should have to sacrifice and everything -- which is less good, or better, isn't good at all -- and I could rant for hours, really, about this and that, but after all new kits are sexy (even if it seems I'm the only one who likes them XD), Coutinho's cute, Davide's working in group again and the Grinch is just one of the chubbiest things ever, I'm happy like this, don't wanna think about anything else.
● My brother's coming home in two days and, as much as I'm happy to see him again, I don't really know if this is going to, you know, work. He's been away so long and he already told me on the phone that he's got no will to come, he's just coming cos he has to and he's got nothing to do in Rome anymore. This is incredibly sad. We've already talked about this thing and the fact that one of the reasons he moved away is that he couldn't stand anymore the atmosphere he breathed here, always surrounded by familiar problems and things to do for the family and the house and the mess and the relatives and everything. It's horrible to hear him say "I don't really wanna come back cos I know that I won't be able to just relax and it's going to be all problems, problems, problems, as usual", and it's even more horrible having to say him he's right, he's just going to find problems, cos, you know, that's how it is. We're having problems with water here and I don't know if we're going to have it again by the time he's here. Our television broke and we're definitely not going to have it fixed in two days. And all the usual problems with dad and everything -- really, how can I blame him when he says he doesn't want to come back? And how can I blame him when he says to me I should go away to? But, at the same time, how can I leave? How can I just leave mom with all the problems and the things to fix and the places to go and the money that are never enough? I know I can't solve things, but at least while I'm here I can help, even if nothing I do seems to be enough, never. *heavy sigh*
I don't know, I just feel like this every time my brother comes back, because it's like he's going on with his life, becoming someone, while I stay here, stuck to my mom and family and don't do anything just for myself. He's just living for himself only and I can't, I don't even want to, I wouldn't want to live away from home, I think, but everything's so confused in my mind whenever I try to think about this all. I feel like I need time to think about myself and decide something, but I never take this time, I just waste it.
Ok, this is going too far away from where I started, I didn't want to. I'm happy he's coming back, though. I've been missing him so much, recently. ♥