People
I like to think that I'm a pretty good judge of character. But what do you do when you pretty much know how (or who) someone is, yet you refuse to believe it? This can be interpreted many ways, I guess. It's not that I want to change anyone, but I tend to see the best in people. When something happens to just reinforce the negative things I know about someone it makes me ill because I want to believe they are the good person I envision them to be. I know I'm making no sense. I also tend to read into things too much (which can be for both good and bad things). I even get obsessed with trying to figure things out. In a way, it hurts to find out that there wasn't anything to really figure out.. it is the way it is. I guess sometimes I want to believe people are deeper than they really are. Or maybe I'm just hoping they feel differently and are just too afraid to do anything about it. Probably not.
Ick, I feel sick to my stomach and I'm making no sense. I can't even make sense of it myself, let alone make enough sense to let others understand what I'm saying.
Ick, I feel sick to my stomach and I'm making no sense. I can't even make sense of it myself, let alone make enough sense to let others understand what I'm saying.