long dreams...
it's sort of like good morning, even tho it's 3 in the afternoon. i'm not good at that whole waking up thing, but i think we went over that before...
talking on the phone with my older sister is the best. i miss her so much, and it's almost like i feel like i got something accomplished every time we hang up.
i miss her,
and we can laugh *so* hard together.
i dreamt SO FUCKING CRAZY last night.
notable moments that i don't want to forget are:
cult mom murders, watching how to videos at shannon's house, escaping on my longboard, eating at an indian restaurant for free, breaking into an upscale women's store, finding a church where it's cool to smoke a joint during the sermon, free help for those who need it, finding billy and playing games at the lake.
i don't fucking know,
but it seemed to last all night long...
i remembered so much of it when i woke up; but it drifted away as dreams do.
and it's not worth writing all out when i can remember it in checkpoints.
there was one part where i was in this sort of boarding school for smart people sort of place and claire's little brother and her mom was there and i was talking to them, and claire was there, but i wasn't talking to her. it's really strange on the mind to be on bad terms with the person who i thought of as my long time best friend. i don't fucking know... (how many times do i say that in an entry on average i wonder?) i just want my life to move and feel good and hopefully things will fall into place when they're supposed to.
blah.
it's so rainy outside, and i'm waiting for matt and billy to pick me up.
we're driving to the city, and then driving matt's car back to his parent's house...
something to kill the time.
hopefully we're moving in tomorrow.
i really do feel like i'm waiting for a christmas that's never going to come.
<3
talking on the phone with my older sister is the best. i miss her so much, and it's almost like i feel like i got something accomplished every time we hang up.
i miss her,
and we can laugh *so* hard together.
i dreamt SO FUCKING CRAZY last night.
notable moments that i don't want to forget are:
cult mom murders, watching how to videos at shannon's house, escaping on my longboard, eating at an indian restaurant for free, breaking into an upscale women's store, finding a church where it's cool to smoke a joint during the sermon, free help for those who need it, finding billy and playing games at the lake.
i don't fucking know,
but it seemed to last all night long...
i remembered so much of it when i woke up; but it drifted away as dreams do.
and it's not worth writing all out when i can remember it in checkpoints.
there was one part where i was in this sort of boarding school for smart people sort of place and claire's little brother and her mom was there and i was talking to them, and claire was there, but i wasn't talking to her. it's really strange on the mind to be on bad terms with the person who i thought of as my long time best friend. i don't fucking know... (how many times do i say that in an entry on average i wonder?) i just want my life to move and feel good and hopefully things will fall into place when they're supposed to.
blah.
it's so rainy outside, and i'm waiting for matt and billy to pick me up.
we're driving to the city, and then driving matt's car back to his parent's house...
something to kill the time.
hopefully we're moving in tomorrow.
i really do feel like i'm waiting for a christmas that's never going to come.
<3