vanity post

[lisa_thecat]

Considering the fact that my birthday will happen while we're on vacation, I'm considering buying pizzas and beer for the colleagues tomorrow. To celebrate what? I hate getting older. It fucking shows. I look in the mirror and I wonder when the hell did this happen. Something died there. And good looks are relative, they depend so much of your

Comments

[dadi]

Buy something for yourself, instead. Something which helps you feel better. It is true that "good looks" depend in a big way of your emotional state, but there are small things which rattle the ole' cage a bit and stimulate new feelings. Like a full-body massage, a new haircut, a visit with a beautician.. all things which probably cost not much more than offering pizza and beer to your colleagues, but might do a lot more for how you feel about yourself.

[lisa_thecat]

I might do something with my hair. But it's not like I'm eager to.

[dadi]

You're not eager now. But having it done, will make a change, so try to push yourself :)

[lisa_thecat]

I know... I have to push myself, or I'd never do anything. Not even for myself. Since I don't like me very much. But I guess I have to live with me, there's no other choice... haha

[dadi]

Liking oneself can be learned.. and doing something for yourself is a kind of autosuggestion too, telling yourself: If you weren't worth it, I wouldn't spend money/time on you! Not something which happens in one day.. but if you do every day just one small thing to make yourself feel better in your own skin, eventually something changes. Little steps.. one day something for the body, one day for the hair, one day for the face..
My personal problem is that my preferite gratification is FOOD, which makes me so happy at the moment if there is something ugly going on in my life.. pity that at length, it causes such contrary effects to self esteem :(