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A friend of mine tried to commit suicide. That's where I've been, that's what I've been doing. Trying to help somebody find a reason to live. It's quite amazing, when trying to convince somebody else, that there's so much to live for, you also remind yourself of so many things.
Some people say, "What's so bad that you'd want to do that to yourself?" But, I do understand the concept of suicide. There are so many things...for some people, they see it as a matter of revenge to those who ignored them, or treated them poorly, or whatever. It's a twisted concept, but they feel that by killing themselves, "THEN they'll be sorry!" And then there are those who just feel worthless, and feel like they have no place in the world, and they get so tired of feeling as if they don't belong, and simply use suicide as their escape from the loneliness of feeling set apart.
And then there are those that hurt. They have had events in their lives, that are simply too much to bear. The pain is so much, and they feel that the only way to stop their pain, is by ending their life all together.
When I see my friends suffering, I really wish I could take all their pain, and wrap it into one big ball, and just swallow it, and take their pain as my own, so they won't have to suffer anymore. It hurts me to see how badly people are suffering. Especially when they are close to you.
I'm really not sure what I'm trying to say anymore...I think I was going to attempt to make a point, but I think my mind and emotions are way too cluttered at the moment...
Some people say, "What's so bad that you'd want to do that to yourself?" But, I do understand the concept of suicide. There are so many things...for some people, they see it as a matter of revenge to those who ignored them, or treated them poorly, or whatever. It's a twisted concept, but they feel that by killing themselves, "THEN they'll be sorry!" And then there are those who just feel worthless, and feel like they have no place in the world, and they get so tired of feeling as if they don't belong, and simply use suicide as their escape from the loneliness of feeling set apart.
And then there are those that hurt. They have had events in their lives, that are simply too much to bear. The pain is so much, and they feel that the only way to stop their pain, is by ending their life all together.
When I see my friends suffering, I really wish I could take all their pain, and wrap it into one big ball, and just swallow it, and take their pain as my own, so they won't have to suffer anymore. It hurts me to see how badly people are suffering. Especially when they are close to you.
I'm really not sure what I'm trying to say anymore...I think I was going to attempt to make a point, but I think my mind and emotions are way too cluttered at the moment...