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So thats wut i get for being a lurker. i find things that i would rather have not seen, but thats ok. i shouldnt have expected anything better.
So i read all my myspace comments lastnight, like all of them starting from 2004. (i couldnt sleep) and it was fucking weird. brought back a lot of memories, but then again i didnt remember wut half of the comments ment. but someone in particular got me thinking.
We dont talk any more, i dont exactly know why, well i have an idea. And even tho im better off without talking to him something in the back of my heart misses that awkward friendship we had. But honestly, im better off without him because he pisses me the fuck off, for no reason, i shouldnt even care but i do. I think it bugs me so much because one day we were kinda talking, not on the best of terms, then it went to him being flat out rude, not that he wasnt already. but before i was used to it. Then i think i changed a lot as a person and he stayed the same, he maybe even got worse, actually yah he got worse. (if that even made sense to anyone at all)Because when i knew him, i mean reallly knew him, he was better off than he is now, in my opinion. Anyways i just want to know WHY? Wut is going on in that head of yours?! Why did u feel the need to just cut me off! Because i know i hurt you, and all you wanted to do was get me back, but it didnt exactly work, it just made me want to talk to you that much more and figure out wtf is wrong with you?! LOL. yah wtf is wrong with you, you have so much potential! Get the fuck out of T.O. and do something with youself. i Honestly wish you nothing but the Best and i mean that with all my heart, but EsPee Seriously?!!? Even if it kills me i want to know why. Tell me the harsh truth, trust me ill be able to deal, because i dont think you have a good reason anyways. I understand why you probably stoped caring about me,and it was about time, but you didnt have to cut off all contact with me.We live in the same town and talk to a lot of the same ppl, dont just think i dropped off the face of the earth. goshhhh. Stop being so lame and maybe consider growing up, i mean that in the nicest way possible, if thats possible?
even if you hate me i still love you, even tho i hate you a lot.
alright enough of my rant. even tho i found it to be hilariously therapeutic.
So i read all my myspace comments lastnight, like all of them starting from 2004. (i couldnt sleep) and it was fucking weird. brought back a lot of memories, but then again i didnt remember wut half of the comments ment. but someone in particular got me thinking.
We dont talk any more, i dont exactly know why, well i have an idea. And even tho im better off without talking to him something in the back of my heart misses that awkward friendship we had. But honestly, im better off without him because he pisses me the fuck off, for no reason, i shouldnt even care but i do. I think it bugs me so much because one day we were kinda talking, not on the best of terms, then it went to him being flat out rude, not that he wasnt already. but before i was used to it. Then i think i changed a lot as a person and he stayed the same, he maybe even got worse, actually yah he got worse. (if that even made sense to anyone at all)Because when i knew him, i mean reallly knew him, he was better off than he is now, in my opinion. Anyways i just want to know WHY? Wut is going on in that head of yours?! Why did u feel the need to just cut me off! Because i know i hurt you, and all you wanted to do was get me back, but it didnt exactly work, it just made me want to talk to you that much more and figure out wtf is wrong with you?! LOL. yah wtf is wrong with you, you have so much potential! Get the fuck out of T.O. and do something with youself. i Honestly wish you nothing but the Best and i mean that with all my heart, but EsPee Seriously?!!? Even if it kills me i want to know why. Tell me the harsh truth, trust me ill be able to deal, because i dont think you have a good reason anyways. I understand why you probably stoped caring about me,and it was about time, but you didnt have to cut off all contact with me.We live in the same town and talk to a lot of the same ppl, dont just think i dropped off the face of the earth. goshhhh. Stop being so lame and maybe consider growing up, i mean that in the nicest way possible, if thats possible?
even if you hate me i still love you, even tho i hate you a lot.
alright enough of my rant. even tho i found it to be hilariously therapeutic.