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I'm restless.I'm on my period and I ran out of the meds i usually take when it really hurts,like now.
I tried to sleep but failed because of the pain,i even tried to sing something to myself to calm me down,but it didn't work.
I feel lonely.I know i have my friends and my family and you,amazing flist,but sometimes i just feel so lonely.I wish I could just go back to how i was a few years ago.I wasn't so full of fears like I am right now.
I feel like i want more from my life,but i don't know how to get there,how to achieve these things,and i don't know if i'm strong enough.
Sometimes i wish i could just hop on a plane to somewhere beautiful,leaving everything behind me,all the pain and all the things i've been through,and start over.I know I cant do this now,though.
I just wish I could be a "normal" 23 years old girl,without all these stuff to cope with.
You probably don't even know what i'm talking about.
I'm sick of my anxiety,i'm sick of panic attacks,i'm sick of not being able to travel,i'm sick of all these.I just want to enjoy my life,and I feel like I can't live it to the fullest.And it hurts,you know,it hurts so much.Fuck,i'm sick of crying.
I just want some chocolate and a good,sad,romantic movie.
I needed to write all this stuff;I feel better now.
I tried to sleep but failed because of the pain,i even tried to sing something to myself to calm me down,but it didn't work.
I feel lonely.I know i have my friends and my family and you,amazing flist,but sometimes i just feel so lonely.I wish I could just go back to how i was a few years ago.I wasn't so full of fears like I am right now.
I feel like i want more from my life,but i don't know how to get there,how to achieve these things,and i don't know if i'm strong enough.
Sometimes i wish i could just hop on a plane to somewhere beautiful,leaving everything behind me,all the pain and all the things i've been through,and start over.I know I cant do this now,though.
I just wish I could be a "normal" 23 years old girl,without all these stuff to cope with.
You probably don't even know what i'm talking about.
I'm sick of my anxiety,i'm sick of panic attacks,i'm sick of not being able to travel,i'm sick of all these.I just want to enjoy my life,and I feel like I can't live it to the fullest.And it hurts,you know,it hurts so much.Fuck,i'm sick of crying.
I just want some chocolate and a good,sad,romantic movie.
I needed to write all this stuff;I feel better now.