No One Else
Title: No One Else
Genre: Drabble (755 words)
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: MinKey (Minho/Key), Jongkey (Jonghyun/Key)
Warning: Character's death.
A/N: This is a translation of my fic Nadie Más, written last year. It's dedicated, as always, to my Minkey soulmate florrchaan and the lovely chocolatos whose fics I love. Thanking my wonderful beta Rosa <3 (once again)
Btw, I started using yuya_lovah 's beautiful icons :)
You don’t understand,
and it’s so clear.
I’ve told you so many times, I’ve shown you in so many ways.
But you still don’t understand.
You’re determined to love him, and not me.
‘Love him’. ‘Love him’ is a just an expression, because I know you don’t love him.
Love. That’s what you think you’re doing, but I know what love is, and you don’t love him. You’re just playing; just playing with each other.
Kibum.
Stop lying to me.
Stop lying to yourself.
Some would say it’s an unrequited love. I know I’m requited, more than once your eyes have told me so. I know you want to be mine, as much as you know I want to be yours. But you deny it, over and over again.
Kibum.
Stop playing.
Stop playing with me.
I see you. I see him. You kiss, every damn day.
But, do you know why I put up with it? Why I don’t look away?
…Why in some sadistic, messed up way, I enjoy it?
Because I know it will be over very soon.
I will finally end this torture.
* * *
I get close to you with a steady pace. You don’t even notice my presence. I just stay there watching you enjoy the moment, watching you savour each other. My hands tremble. Is it wrath? Pain? Excitement? Maybe it’s a combination of all of them.
Jonghyun breaks the kiss softly, and opens his eyes. Immediately, he turns around to look at me, like you do.
He looks at me with a puzzled expression. You look at me with horror in your eyes.
Kibum, don’t look at me like this.
I know you want this too.
We’re almost there.
My hands keep trembling, but I manage to smile at you. Maybe a bit macabre, but smile anyway.
You look at one of my hands with fright. Is it because of the shaking? Or because of what I’m holding in it?
You cover your mouth, and hold his hand. Your eyes turn glassy.
‘Minho… what are you doing with that gun?’ Your whisper is barely audible.
I smile again, but this time it’s a sad smile.
‘This is something I should have done a long time ago,’ my voice doesn’t shake, but my hand rising with the gun in it does. I don’t doubt my actions. I know it’s the right thing to do. However, there are tears rolling down my cheeks.
I just shoot.
Silence.
‘Get away’ I tell the other bastard that stays watching your body on the floor, without blinking, without moving. ‘Get away!’ I scream once more.
That’s what took him to move his feet. At first, he moved slowly. Later, he ran.
Two ‘Go away’s were enough. Is that what you called love, Kibum? What do you expect from someone like that? Do you still prefer him? Even when he abandons you at death’s door?
What can I say? I already knew it would happen.
I get close to your body and I kneel by your side, holding your upper body. My tears fall on your face. I take in your glassy eyes, your slow breathing, barely perceptible, like your pulse. You don’t even have strength to change your expression.
I touch your wound, which is warm because of the blood. I caress your cheek.
‘W-Why?’ You murmur, with tears leaving your eyes.
I smile, knowing that we’re almost done.
‘Is it necessary to say why?’ I whisper while my hands brush your hair. ‘So there won’t be anything or anyone else that can separate us. I’ll always be yours, and you’ll always be mine.’
What is it I see in your eyes? Pain? Grief?
I don’t understand, Kibum.
I thought you wanted this too.
I stop noticing expressions in your look, because it’s empty. Your heart has stopped beating, and your breathing has stopped flowing too. I know now’s the moment.
I kiss your lips tenderly. I kiss them like I’ve never done before.
I bring the gun, forgotten in one of my hands, closer to my skull.
I smile while tears keep rolling down my skin, and I look at you one last time.
Kibum, you and me, together forever.
What I’ve always desired, yearned for.
Maybe I haven’t been the best, but there’s something I’m certain of.
No one has ever loved you like I do.
I smile, because once I pull the trigger, my dream will become true.
Kibum and Minho together for the rest of the eternity.
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Fanart that inspired me
Genre: Drabble (755 words)
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: MinKey (Minho/Key), Jongkey (Jonghyun/Key)
Warning: Character's death.
A/N: This is a translation of my fic Nadie Más, written last year. It's dedicated, as always, to my Minkey soulmate florrchaan and the lovely chocolatos whose fics I love. Thanking my wonderful beta Rosa <3 (once again)
Btw, I started using yuya_lovah 's beautiful icons :)
You don’t understand,
and it’s so clear.
I’ve told you so many times, I’ve shown you in so many ways.
But you still don’t understand.
You’re determined to love him, and not me.
‘Love him’. ‘Love him’ is a just an expression, because I know you don’t love him.
Love. That’s what you think you’re doing, but I know what love is, and you don’t love him. You’re just playing; just playing with each other.
Kibum.
Stop lying to me.
Stop lying to yourself.
Some would say it’s an unrequited love. I know I’m requited, more than once your eyes have told me so. I know you want to be mine, as much as you know I want to be yours. But you deny it, over and over again.
Kibum.
Stop playing.
Stop playing with me.
I see you. I see him. You kiss, every damn day.
But, do you know why I put up with it? Why I don’t look away?
…Why in some sadistic, messed up way, I enjoy it?
Because I know it will be over very soon.
I will finally end this torture.
* * *
I get close to you with a steady pace. You don’t even notice my presence. I just stay there watching you enjoy the moment, watching you savour each other. My hands tremble. Is it wrath? Pain? Excitement? Maybe it’s a combination of all of them.
Jonghyun breaks the kiss softly, and opens his eyes. Immediately, he turns around to look at me, like you do.
He looks at me with a puzzled expression. You look at me with horror in your eyes.
Kibum, don’t look at me like this.
I know you want this too.
We’re almost there.
My hands keep trembling, but I manage to smile at you. Maybe a bit macabre, but smile anyway.
You look at one of my hands with fright. Is it because of the shaking? Or because of what I’m holding in it?
You cover your mouth, and hold his hand. Your eyes turn glassy.
‘Minho… what are you doing with that gun?’ Your whisper is barely audible.
I smile again, but this time it’s a sad smile.
‘This is something I should have done a long time ago,’ my voice doesn’t shake, but my hand rising with the gun in it does. I don’t doubt my actions. I know it’s the right thing to do. However, there are tears rolling down my cheeks.
I just shoot.
Silence.
‘Get away’ I tell the other bastard that stays watching your body on the floor, without blinking, without moving. ‘Get away!’ I scream once more.
That’s what took him to move his feet. At first, he moved slowly. Later, he ran.
Two ‘Go away’s were enough. Is that what you called love, Kibum? What do you expect from someone like that? Do you still prefer him? Even when he abandons you at death’s door?
What can I say? I already knew it would happen.
I get close to your body and I kneel by your side, holding your upper body. My tears fall on your face. I take in your glassy eyes, your slow breathing, barely perceptible, like your pulse. You don’t even have strength to change your expression.
I touch your wound, which is warm because of the blood. I caress your cheek.
‘W-Why?’ You murmur, with tears leaving your eyes.
I smile, knowing that we’re almost done.
‘Is it necessary to say why?’ I whisper while my hands brush your hair. ‘So there won’t be anything or anyone else that can separate us. I’ll always be yours, and you’ll always be mine.’
What is it I see in your eyes? Pain? Grief?
I don’t understand, Kibum.
I thought you wanted this too.
I stop noticing expressions in your look, because it’s empty. Your heart has stopped beating, and your breathing has stopped flowing too. I know now’s the moment.
I kiss your lips tenderly. I kiss them like I’ve never done before.
I bring the gun, forgotten in one of my hands, closer to my skull.
I smile while tears keep rolling down my skin, and I look at you one last time.
Kibum, you and me, together forever.
What I’ve always desired, yearned for.
Maybe I haven’t been the best, but there’s something I’m certain of.
No one has ever loved you like I do.
I smile, because once I pull the trigger, my dream will become true.
Kibum and Minho together for the rest of the eternity.
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Fanart that inspired me
