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I'm avoiding Ashley right now. Not because I don't want to talk to her or hang out with her, but because I'm tired. I need just some ME time and I've been severely lacking in it for a few weeks now. I worked all weekend --- worked damn hard all weekend --- and now I just want a few hours to rest before I have to wake up and start the whole stupid shabang all over again. I'm not going back to work until Thursday (unless I get called in) and have mixed feelings about it. My hours got cut this week and I'm kinda freaking out about it because I have to make as much money as I possibly can for next month. On the other hand, how nice will it be to NOT have to go to work every day? To be able to rest, maybe actually do some of my homework AT home (which I won't, but it's nice to think)? I'm trying to look at it as a blessing in disguise (or in plain sight), but I'm feeling resentful that Ashley put me on for a measly three hour shift on Friday in the cafe when Bethany usually has me on for a nine hour shift on the book floor. It was mean. The cafe will be dead and it's only for THREE HOURS. Three hour shifts are like the bane of my existence.
Anyway, I'll see Ashley tomorrow for our lame bowling escapades (lame seeing as it's just me and her now. Donny apparently met a girl, lost his v-card, and, uh, hasn't really talked to us since). And I'll put up for her ridiculous Michael Jackson obsession because I love her (but really, enough's enough).
Mondays are such loooong days for me. I'm really not looking forward to it. Up at 6am, home around 1am. Ugh.
I wish something exciting would happen that doesn't involve me working or me attempting not to fail at school. Like, meeting a guy.....
That's something I seem to constantly be at ends with. I want to meet a guy, want the guy to like me, maybe do the whole couple thing.... But then I'm a really independent person and I like my independence. I invest waaaaay too much energy in liking people. I think I'm just bored. There's never a boring moment if you like someone (so says the sickly obsessive girl?).
I went to the Janus Players (HA!) and Art Club meetings last Wednesday. Maybe something just as exciting as liking someone can occur through that. Like, being in a production again. Or rekindling my old love for art.
I don't know. Sometimes I just feel so dull. And boring. Ugh.
Anyway, I'll see Ashley tomorrow for our lame bowling escapades (lame seeing as it's just me and her now. Donny apparently met a girl, lost his v-card, and, uh, hasn't really talked to us since). And I'll put up for her ridiculous Michael Jackson obsession because I love her (but really, enough's enough).
Mondays are such loooong days for me. I'm really not looking forward to it. Up at 6am, home around 1am. Ugh.
I wish something exciting would happen that doesn't involve me working or me attempting not to fail at school. Like, meeting a guy.....
That's something I seem to constantly be at ends with. I want to meet a guy, want the guy to like me, maybe do the whole couple thing.... But then I'm a really independent person and I like my independence. I invest waaaaay too much energy in liking people. I think I'm just bored. There's never a boring moment if you like someone (so says the sickly obsessive girl?).
I went to the Janus Players (HA!) and Art Club meetings last Wednesday. Maybe something just as exciting as liking someone can occur through that. Like, being in a production again. Or rekindling my old love for art.
I don't know. Sometimes I just feel so dull. And boring. Ugh.