back in the library
I'm here again. I can't believe how drastically my mood can change within a week. Just over a week ago I was sitting in this room and I was thrilled- I was going to leave for Canada the next day, and be with my baby again. The week up there went by too fast. We did so many fun and wonderful things together. We went on a double date, saw the Glenbow Museum, made dinners together, went out to eat, went to a gun range for the first time, hung out with his family and neighbor, went out to McClain Creek, met my boss, stayed up late, slept in, saw new movies... it was just what I imagined and more. Now it's over, now we're apart again. My heart breaks with each breath. I miss him. I feel weak. There are no words to express how I feel at this moment. It is unbelievably frustrating yet I know he understands what this is doing to me- as he is going through the same pain. All I need to get through is a month and a half... that's it. After that school will be over with and the summer can begin. I don't have any inspiration to be in school, I don't care. I have no idea what I want to do with the rest of my life! Let me get through this time apart. I just need a little push, some motivation to get through each day. Help me.