thought provoked
My friend,
alissamarie, posted this in her lj:
When you're at work, or you're at home, and you're sort of just . . . daydreaming . . . what do you most wish you were doing, or could do?
Short-term, long-term, I want to know.
And it got me to thinking. What exactly are my desires? Part of my problems is that I don't know what my real desires are. Scratch that, I don't know what I want to do with the bulk of my life. I'm lacking direction. My brother-in-law says that a christian shouldn't sing the lyrics of "Place in this World" by Michael W. Smith because christians know what their place in this world is. I didn't really argue with him at the time, but there is an argument to that. Sometimes we still have to look, we still have to wander. I don't know what my place in this world is. And I really don't believe that God's forsaken me. So then, christians can be place-less, can't we? Maybe I just can't quiet my heart long enough to hear where it is I'm supposed to go or who I'm supposed to be. But it still stands that I just don't know.
I think about what I want, and I want direction, a known purpose, most of all. Beyond that, there are things I'd like to do in life, provided that whatever my true calling accomodates them.
I want a black belt in some martial art form. I think preferably a japanese martial art.
I want some connection to my mother's heritage. (See above for a possibility).
I want to be decent at long bow or recurve bow archery.
I want to learn some ballroom dances and swing dances.
I want to play in a band again.
I want to at last feel comfortable with the body I'm in.
I want to restore an old home.
I want to bring the world that only vaguely exists on paper and in my brain to collective realization. I want to publish books about it and make an online gaming community around it.
I want to teach and inspire children through a children's novel.
I want to live at my own camp or retreat center.
I want to travel and see the beauty of the world.
Short-term goals/desires: I want to be vibrant, energetic, and productive. I want to give of my heart because I feel like I have something of my heart to give. I want to liberate myself. I want to sing karaoke, I want to dance at weddings. I want to drive without anxiety. I want to get near a dog without feeling apprehensive. I want to randomly call friends just because I thought of them that day. I want to welcome people to be around me, not push them away because I feel ashamed of being unsuccessful.
So maybe I have a lot of desires.
alissamarie, posted this in her lj:
When you're at work, or you're at home, and you're sort of just . . . daydreaming . . . what do you most wish you were doing, or could do?
Short-term, long-term, I want to know.
And it got me to thinking. What exactly are my desires? Part of my problems is that I don't know what my real desires are. Scratch that, I don't know what I want to do with the bulk of my life. I'm lacking direction. My brother-in-law says that a christian shouldn't sing the lyrics of "Place in this World" by Michael W. Smith because christians know what their place in this world is. I didn't really argue with him at the time, but there is an argument to that. Sometimes we still have to look, we still have to wander. I don't know what my place in this world is. And I really don't believe that God's forsaken me. So then, christians can be place-less, can't we? Maybe I just can't quiet my heart long enough to hear where it is I'm supposed to go or who I'm supposed to be. But it still stands that I just don't know.
I think about what I want, and I want direction, a known purpose, most of all. Beyond that, there are things I'd like to do in life, provided that whatever my true calling accomodates them.
I want a black belt in some martial art form. I think preferably a japanese martial art.
I want some connection to my mother's heritage. (See above for a possibility).
I want to be decent at long bow or recurve bow archery.
I want to learn some ballroom dances and swing dances.
I want to play in a band again.
I want to at last feel comfortable with the body I'm in.
I want to restore an old home.
I want to bring the world that only vaguely exists on paper and in my brain to collective realization. I want to publish books about it and make an online gaming community around it.
I want to teach and inspire children through a children's novel.
I want to live at my own camp or retreat center.
I want to travel and see the beauty of the world.
Short-term goals/desires: I want to be vibrant, energetic, and productive. I want to give of my heart because I feel like I have something of my heart to give. I want to liberate myself. I want to sing karaoke, I want to dance at weddings. I want to drive without anxiety. I want to get near a dog without feeling apprehensive. I want to randomly call friends just because I thought of them that day. I want to welcome people to be around me, not push them away because I feel ashamed of being unsuccessful.
So maybe I have a lot of desires.