freaking out a little, a little torn

Apr 07, 2007 00:02

A really good friend from college is getting married this month.
I don't have a job to stand in the way, but I want/need a job and I'm hoping to get one between now and then. And I hope that I can get that whole weekend off if I am to get a job.

But my car is uber-unreliable now. The alternator breaking down on the way home from montreal wasn't a great thing to happen, but now the brakes need to be redone and Dad thinks a bearing is going in the drive shaft/train or something really important like that. So I can't drive my car for 6 hours to get there.
I was going to ask for a ride there from acquaintances of the bride, but that's NOT where asking for rides ends, is it? There's getting to the church, then getting to the reception hall, then wherever I might have to stay overnight, which I haven't booked yet, because, well I don't know if I'll be going.
So that and greyhound really aren't options to me. I'm not sure I want to steal mom's car from her for the weekend either. Better me or dad drive the car that may break down at any second.

And now I'm mad and sad because I really love my two friends who are getting married, but this seems like a hell of a lot more than I can handle right now. And I'm pissed because I don't feel like this is something I can handle.

I'm supposed to be a confident, these-things-don't-phase-me, yes-I-can-get-there woman and I'm freaking not, dammit!
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