i am miserable

[lirioblanco]

So, what happened Thursday night is about the most hellish thing I have ever experienced. I am still kinda shocked about the whole ordeal, and I really don't feel like writing out everything, but I guess I will say basically what happened. Amy and I were sitting in Starbucks, bored, and kinda spontaneously decided to go to Murfressboro for a couple of hours and see Sam and Jonathan. On the way, my car engine burned out completely b/c the oil had gotten too low. And I knew it had to be getting low, but I was waiting to change the oil until I got paid this Friday, and of course didn't check it. And yes, I hate myself for that right now. So, after sitting on the side of the road for a while, calling everyone in creation on our almost dead cell phones, finally getting a cop, getting my car towed to some hick town, and meeting Sam and Jonathan in a gas station, we made it to Murfreesboro and spent the night (all 4 hours) at Sam's. The next morning I went to find out about my car, and the news was that one of my rods had completely broken off and the engine had to be replaced. That's gonna cost me about $2000. Then I had to call Ricky and get him to come get us because there was no one else in Jackson I could think of (of course, I didn't think of my aunt, who apparently I was supposed to call if I got in trouble). And, to top off this wonderful experience, my mom has been completely horrible about all of it. As if I hadn't been through enough already, she is refusing to help me get a loan to repair the car, or help in any way with it basically, grounded me for a week, and is "thinking about" letting me hang out with Amy the rest of the summer. And on top of that, she's just being extremely hateful to me any chance she gets. I don't know how I can tolerate living here the rest of the summer, and once I get out, I am never coming back. Anyway, I'm just trying to get along with her as best I can, considering that my only time away from her this week will be work (and my sister's at camp all week...). So, basically my life is about as crappy as it can be right now, and for the stupidest of reasons possible. Lesson to all: CHANGE THE DAMN OIL!

I want my car. I want my free time. I want to be the hell out of Jackson, Tennessee. That's all.