hmm, SPRING BREAK
let's see. I'm sitting back at school, currently talking to my dad, who happens to be just waking up in china. Yeah. i said it, China damn it. that's for in a few paragraphs, i'm getting to it, and maybe i can write it all down without crying. Wish me luck. I'm tearing it up just thinking about it.
Well, i conquered my fear of driving long distances and headed up to NY with Katy. We drove there in about 5 hours, however, for some reason when we headed back to MD it only took us 4...right. methinks i was driving a little fast. :-D. Katy and I had all sorts of fun. I rescued her from her parents more than once. It was pretty awesome. We saw Avenue Q and that was great, if not scarring. Katy and i then headed back to my place and hung out for the rest of break...i think four days...or five...something like that. my place was fun. We did some more shopping, which included jo's prom and graduation dresses. we made off like bandits at that one. It was much fun. Katy had a lot of fun with the puppies and we managed to get along well the whole time!
I keep leaving this, and then coming back...very strange. i can't seem to concentrate on much lately. i don't like that at all. I'm not feeling great. I'm glad to be back at school. Maybe the next couple weeks will just fly and i'll stop worrying about everything so much. Good lord i do that a lot. I just read some stuff on OCD and i've definitely got some of that babe.
My father has been gone for two days. Gone where you might ask...Yeah, i guess i did say it earlier...CHINA. Yeah, he decided to open his own company and go and consult in china. By himself for the first couple days because of the snow his partner got stuck in NY an he had to fly on by himself. And then, he had a bad time getting to the hotel since the cabbie didnt speak any english, but he's doing ok, besides managing to set his ipod into Chinese language settings. I managed to help him get it set back this morning...or rather...his night. He's living tomorrow right now. that's kinda weird. He is 12 hours ahead which means that he's awake when i'm asleep and well. that's not too much fun. As you can see from the below excerpt...he's still a little confused...
Dad848689: have a great day
SongofSanctuary: lol, or a good night sleep
SongofSanctuary: :-)
SongofSanctuary: you have a good day
Dad848689: thanks
methinks he'll figure it out eventually. I am very worried about him being over there. I"m so worried that something will happen to him while we are all so far away. I don't know why i'm having such a hard time about him being so far away, but in my whole life he hasn't been so far away for so long. I'm a daddy's girl. My parents and I have a fantastic relationship. SO much so that we're so tight that most of my friends want my parents after they meet them. i kept wanting his plans to fall through, even though he was so excited about them because i wanted him to be staying in the states, relatively safer than anywhere else he could be. god i hate this. i've tears running down my face again, and being completely alone with too much time to think doesn't make it very easy. i can't write about this anymore.
time to attempt to go to bed.
Come to bed, don't make me sleep alone.
Couldn't hide the emptiness, you let it show.
Never wanted it to be so cold.
Just didn't drink enough to say you love me.
I can't hold on to me,
Wonder what's wrong with me.
Don't want to let it lay me down this time.
Drown my will to fly.
Here in the darkness I know myself.
Can't break free until I let it go.
Let me go.
Darling, I forgive you after all.
Anything is better than to be alone.
And in the end I guess I had to fall.
Always find my place among the ashes.
Well, i conquered my fear of driving long distances and headed up to NY with Katy. We drove there in about 5 hours, however, for some reason when we headed back to MD it only took us 4...right. methinks i was driving a little fast. :-D. Katy and I had all sorts of fun. I rescued her from her parents more than once. It was pretty awesome. We saw Avenue Q and that was great, if not scarring. Katy and i then headed back to my place and hung out for the rest of break...i think four days...or five...something like that. my place was fun. We did some more shopping, which included jo's prom and graduation dresses. we made off like bandits at that one. It was much fun. Katy had a lot of fun with the puppies and we managed to get along well the whole time!
I keep leaving this, and then coming back...very strange. i can't seem to concentrate on much lately. i don't like that at all. I'm not feeling great. I'm glad to be back at school. Maybe the next couple weeks will just fly and i'll stop worrying about everything so much. Good lord i do that a lot. I just read some stuff on OCD and i've definitely got some of that babe.
My father has been gone for two days. Gone where you might ask...Yeah, i guess i did say it earlier...CHINA. Yeah, he decided to open his own company and go and consult in china. By himself for the first couple days because of the snow his partner got stuck in NY an he had to fly on by himself. And then, he had a bad time getting to the hotel since the cabbie didnt speak any english, but he's doing ok, besides managing to set his ipod into Chinese language settings. I managed to help him get it set back this morning...or rather...his night. He's living tomorrow right now. that's kinda weird. He is 12 hours ahead which means that he's awake when i'm asleep and well. that's not too much fun. As you can see from the below excerpt...he's still a little confused...
Dad848689: have a great day
SongofSanctuary: lol, or a good night sleep
SongofSanctuary: :-)
SongofSanctuary: you have a good day
Dad848689: thanks
methinks he'll figure it out eventually. I am very worried about him being over there. I"m so worried that something will happen to him while we are all so far away. I don't know why i'm having such a hard time about him being so far away, but in my whole life he hasn't been so far away for so long. I'm a daddy's girl. My parents and I have a fantastic relationship. SO much so that we're so tight that most of my friends want my parents after they meet them. i kept wanting his plans to fall through, even though he was so excited about them because i wanted him to be staying in the states, relatively safer than anywhere else he could be. god i hate this. i've tears running down my face again, and being completely alone with too much time to think doesn't make it very easy. i can't write about this anymore.
time to attempt to go to bed.
Come to bed, don't make me sleep alone.
Couldn't hide the emptiness, you let it show.
Never wanted it to be so cold.
Just didn't drink enough to say you love me.
I can't hold on to me,
Wonder what's wrong with me.
Don't want to let it lay me down this time.
Drown my will to fly.
Here in the darkness I know myself.
Can't break free until I let it go.
Let me go.
Darling, I forgive you after all.
Anything is better than to be alone.
And in the end I guess I had to fall.
Always find my place among the ashes.