Fade Away 3
Zac
She was back. Well, not exactly back, but she was standing in front of me, her eyes full of tears, her hair in a nearly undone ponytail. She used to be invincible, but that was long before she messed up her life and ours in her way to discover the world. She used to be my friend, but when she dissappeared I knew it was over. Everything I had loved... everything I was, everything Hanson was with her beside us, had left and the hole was too big to be covered up with a bunch of lies. Taylor had begun to fall apart, ad then Hanson began to fall apart too. Neither Ike nor me knew what to do, and in the end we let him lead a life of disaster in the arms of that... that... wife or his.
I hugged Kyla after telling her what I thought, and she hugged me back. We stayed like that for a couple of minutes, letting our emotions sink in the hole of our hearts before pulling apart softly. She looked into my eyes deeply and spoke again.
"What tale? Who's senator's son? Are you talking about Jesse McEllis?"
I only nodded, and to my surprise she supressed a little smile from showing in her lips. I stared at her in amazement as she talked again.
"He is only a friend. And he isn't even a close friend! I met him at a party, you know, I never loved partying, but in New York I had to... because of my job... and I met him. The only weird thing about our relationship is that the media found out and made up a story about the two of us going out and stuff like that..."
"So they're all lies", I stated, Ike bouncing at our backs."You never dated the guy"
"Never had, never will", she said smiling a bit more, "He is just some stupid boy... nothing like you all"
I hugged her again and then let her go. I remembered when I found out the truth beneath the lies she had been feeding us all for months. Memories spreading their dangerous poison through my veins, I stared blankly at her while all of a sudden my past hit me hard.
She was standing in the back of the van while Taylor and Isaac checked out their suitcases. We were leaving for a couple of months, just some promotional shows and we would be back to Tulsa. Kyla was beautiful, her long dark hair swinging on her back and her eyes sparkling like little stars. She was looking at Taylor, though, as if he had done something wrong. I could sense that there was an issue between them that needed to be solved, so I asked Ike to help me so we could give them some kind of privacy. A privacy that didn't keep us from hearing what was going on.
"And when do you plan to tell everybody, Taylor?"
"Kyla, you know this isn't easy... It's not something I want to talk about in front of my whole family, you know?"
"Well, it must as hell be, 'cause it wasn't something you found hard to do, am I wrong, Taylor?Just answer me!"
"Babe..."
"Don't you dare to use that name against me!! Not after what you've done!!! Taylor, I thought you loved me, and then you came along and told me you got... you... you hooked that girl up and that you were going to do the right thing! The right thing! Do you know how I feel? Do you have the slightest idea?"
"What?", yelled Ike before I could held him, so he suddenly was between them "What the fuck, Taylor! Did you just do what she is saying?"
I managed to get near Kyla and held her before she started to cry her eyes out in frustration. I didn't know anything about the problem they had been having for months, I guessed, and Kyla was my best friend back then. I should have known... But I didn't.
"What are you talknig about, Kyla?", I asked gently, "What is this story about a girl.. pregnant?". I couldn't repeat what she had said.
"But it's true!! He cheated on me!!1", she cried, I could swear she hadn't before, she hadn't cried whne she found out and it was killing her, so I let the tears roll down her cheeks and then I looked at Taylor, waiting for an answer to the question in my eyes. He hesitated a litttle but then he spoke. And what he said hurt me a lot, but it was nothing compared to what it made Kyla feel.
"I'm in love, I told you", Tay was staring directly to Kyla, "I love her... Natalie, that's her name. I didn't plan this to happen, but I love her and we're going to have a baby. Together. So... I told you, Kyla, we're over. But you can't admit it.... I'm sorry but things are like that for a reason... We shouldn't have been together"
I couldn't believe my ears. Taylor was broking up with Kyla for another girl we didn't even know!!! We haven't met her before, and he was having a baby with her. Definitively, Taylor was going to win the 'I'm the jerkest guy around' prize of the year.
Kyla was crying harder against my shirt. She was shivering, unable to speak, unable even to breathe. I thought she was going to pass out, and I led her to the kitchen, inside our house, to get her a glass of water and a seat.
After that, as you may think, neither Ike nor me trusted again Taylor... Neither did Kyla. He married the girl and we immediately went back to Europe for a tour. When we got back, Kyla had dissapeared, and only a letter was left on the stairs. A letter I could never forget, would I live for hundreds fo years. Only two lines to change our lives forever.
My letter was diferent from those of my brothers. Kyla had left a note for averyone. As I watched her back again, wipping her eyes and askeing me to get her to the hospital, I was reminded of its content, as if I had memorized it by heart. And I had, I can tell. Even today, so many years passed by, I can repeat each word written down on it. As I said, it was different, not the 'I'm leaving 'cause I can't stand it' crap. Not at all. Mine... mine was desperate, hopeless. And that was what broke my heart in two.
As I watched her, I repeated unconsciously the words loudly. I could see her scared look before I could stop myself.
Zac, I'm leaving not because he left me but because I can't believe he did. Don't try to find me, don't try to discover the truth. 'Cause truth is not what we're her to search, Zac. I'll tell you my truth; but please don't tell him. He'd be torn and I love him so much. Zac... I'm pregnant.