i just got home from a sex toy party with my mom...
...but more about that in a bit.
i know i haven't been around much lately. and when i have been around, i've been in a really bad mood. sorry guys. for those of you not in the loop, ron dumped me. i found out about a job opportunity in birmingham, so i drove over to tally to talk to him about the possibility of me going for an interview, and i guess it was the straw that broke the camel's back. i've been on some bad drives before, but i think the drive home that night ranks as the all time worse. (and i didn't get the job, btw. although, i promise you, i gave it my all. had the head of human resources redo my resume, practice interviewed, all the jazz. wasn't meant to be, right?)
anyways, let's just say the last few weeks have not been good. my boss has been waiting with baited breath for me to tell him what day i was moving. and of course, he asked me the other day in front of my district manager and i had to tell him in front of the entire management staff. one of the nice things about being a little over a month away from moving, was getting organized. i've been going through all the boxes i packed in 2 days when i moved back in september. i've been filing, and shredding, and donating clothes. i even found a handful of books i could part with. the more i look around, the more i see i could live without.
i'm making some changes. i quit drinking, after i went out with the ladies of "girl's night out" in birmingham, and realized i risked getting way too depressed after 3 glasses of wine. i also started looking at the amount of money i've been spending on food recently (at work, breaks). so i decided i really need to start taking my lunch to work. i've gotten two of my credit cards pretty far down, and hope to have them paid off in 2 months.
i've also been thinking alot about a conversation i had on a river not too long ago. i've started making a salad to take to work every day (with extra vegetables, i'm trying to teach myself to like things that are good for me) and i keep granola bars in my box so i avoid the vending machine. no alcohol, no soda. all water, tea, juice, and milk. trying to swear off all fast food,but it's a little hard wih friends who are perpetually broke, and mom goes through her taco bell movements. i usually make 2 boiled eggs, an ounce of cheese, and a glass of o.j. in the mornings.
i started running again last week. i haven't run since high school (and those of you who have been around long enough to remember how disasterous that was are probaby laughing your asses off). this past week i've taken it very easy. i'm heavier than i was as a h.s. freshman, my asthma is worse (don't even say it, i know, my own damn fault). so i'm just taking it easy. not far, not fast, my part of the neighborhood only. i'll branch out next week. see how i do. i'd say i'm doing under a mile, then using my 5 lbs. hola-hoop, followed my 25 sit ups. i recently found out an old friend is working at Gold's gym, and they offer a spinning class. i took a few in college and really enjoyed it, so i may go down and check things out.
i'm also trying to read more. in the past few months, i've kind of put alot of my reading on hold, didn't seem to have the time. the few books i've started i put to the side, and end up picking up a new one. so right now, i have several books waiting for me to finish. i'm starting with wonder boys. oh! and i found something i must have! bookmark dictionary! i usually have the computer nearby when reading, so i can go to dictionary.com to look up the words i don't know. if not, i have a real dictionary sitting next to me. how awesome would it be to have a flat electronic dictionary bookmark! i so want it. but i'm being good, and saving for it, instead of just buying it the moment i saw it.
as for my hair pulling. well, my support group is out of town. and one of my biggest supporters dumped me, and one of my biggest supports at work quit. and mom being off from school for the summer, and acting seriously clingy, ive had some set backs. but i have to say, i've almost compeltely stopped pulling at work. in the car is my worse time, especially if mom's in the car with me. but right now, i'm trying to take things one day at a time.
i still have a plan, and it has evolved in the last week. but it depends on two questions. one i will have an answer to on monday. the second, if i don't have an answer to by wed, i'm going to take matters into my own hands. it both answers are in the negative, i will have one last ditch question, and i expect a negative on that (but i am a hopeful romanitc, not hopeless). i've got everything planned out. bought my supplies. i think it's going to go down smoothly.
i know i haven't been around much lately. and when i have been around, i've been in a really bad mood. sorry guys. for those of you not in the loop, ron dumped me. i found out about a job opportunity in birmingham, so i drove over to tally to talk to him about the possibility of me going for an interview, and i guess it was the straw that broke the camel's back. i've been on some bad drives before, but i think the drive home that night ranks as the all time worse. (and i didn't get the job, btw. although, i promise you, i gave it my all. had the head of human resources redo my resume, practice interviewed, all the jazz. wasn't meant to be, right?)
anyways, let's just say the last few weeks have not been good. my boss has been waiting with baited breath for me to tell him what day i was moving. and of course, he asked me the other day in front of my district manager and i had to tell him in front of the entire management staff. one of the nice things about being a little over a month away from moving, was getting organized. i've been going through all the boxes i packed in 2 days when i moved back in september. i've been filing, and shredding, and donating clothes. i even found a handful of books i could part with. the more i look around, the more i see i could live without.
i'm making some changes. i quit drinking, after i went out with the ladies of "girl's night out" in birmingham, and realized i risked getting way too depressed after 3 glasses of wine. i also started looking at the amount of money i've been spending on food recently (at work, breaks). so i decided i really need to start taking my lunch to work. i've gotten two of my credit cards pretty far down, and hope to have them paid off in 2 months.
i've also been thinking alot about a conversation i had on a river not too long ago. i've started making a salad to take to work every day (with extra vegetables, i'm trying to teach myself to like things that are good for me) and i keep granola bars in my box so i avoid the vending machine. no alcohol, no soda. all water, tea, juice, and milk. trying to swear off all fast food,but it's a little hard wih friends who are perpetually broke, and mom goes through her taco bell movements. i usually make 2 boiled eggs, an ounce of cheese, and a glass of o.j. in the mornings.
i started running again last week. i haven't run since high school (and those of you who have been around long enough to remember how disasterous that was are probaby laughing your asses off). this past week i've taken it very easy. i'm heavier than i was as a h.s. freshman, my asthma is worse (don't even say it, i know, my own damn fault). so i'm just taking it easy. not far, not fast, my part of the neighborhood only. i'll branch out next week. see how i do. i'd say i'm doing under a mile, then using my 5 lbs. hola-hoop, followed my 25 sit ups. i recently found out an old friend is working at Gold's gym, and they offer a spinning class. i took a few in college and really enjoyed it, so i may go down and check things out.
i'm also trying to read more. in the past few months, i've kind of put alot of my reading on hold, didn't seem to have the time. the few books i've started i put to the side, and end up picking up a new one. so right now, i have several books waiting for me to finish. i'm starting with wonder boys. oh! and i found something i must have! bookmark dictionary! i usually have the computer nearby when reading, so i can go to dictionary.com to look up the words i don't know. if not, i have a real dictionary sitting next to me. how awesome would it be to have a flat electronic dictionary bookmark! i so want it. but i'm being good, and saving for it, instead of just buying it the moment i saw it.
as for my hair pulling. well, my support group is out of town. and one of my biggest supporters dumped me, and one of my biggest supports at work quit. and mom being off from school for the summer, and acting seriously clingy, ive had some set backs. but i have to say, i've almost compeltely stopped pulling at work. in the car is my worse time, especially if mom's in the car with me. but right now, i'm trying to take things one day at a time.
i still have a plan, and it has evolved in the last week. but it depends on two questions. one i will have an answer to on monday. the second, if i don't have an answer to by wed, i'm going to take matters into my own hands. it both answers are in the negative, i will have one last ditch question, and i expect a negative on that (but i am a hopeful romanitc, not hopeless). i've got everything planned out. bought my supplies. i think it's going to go down smoothly.