why is it not ok for me to not know who i am?
lately, i've been getting a lot of advice from everyone around me. two people in particular stand out. or at least, the comments they've made have stood out.
i don't know who i am, or what i want to do with my life. i never have. i've always been an outcast, my whole life. as far back as i can remember, i've been on the fringe. i went to college because my parents did florida pre-paid. i went to fsu because it offered more freedom. i became a humanities major because after 60 hours, they make you declare a major, and this one offered the widest range of classes with the least math. i haven't figured out what kind of career i want to pursue.
and i'm learning to be ok with this.
i graduated from high school in 1999. there was a song running around off baz luhrmann's cd, something for everybody. quindon tarver reads a speech written by tim cox and nigel swanston, full of advice for the future. it's always been a favorite of mine, for several of the lines. but in the past few days, one in particular keeps running through my head.
"don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life. the most interesting people i know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives. some of the most interesting 40 year olds i know still don't."
so what if i'm not sure who i am? who cares if i haven't figured out what i want in the future? i'm still learning, everyday. if i had all the answers, what would i have to look forward to? if i'm still learning who i am, i'm still growing. and i don't want to stop growing. i don't want to become stagnant.
i don't know who i am, or what i want to do with my life. i never have. i've always been an outcast, my whole life. as far back as i can remember, i've been on the fringe. i went to college because my parents did florida pre-paid. i went to fsu because it offered more freedom. i became a humanities major because after 60 hours, they make you declare a major, and this one offered the widest range of classes with the least math. i haven't figured out what kind of career i want to pursue.
and i'm learning to be ok with this.
i graduated from high school in 1999. there was a song running around off baz luhrmann's cd, something for everybody. quindon tarver reads a speech written by tim cox and nigel swanston, full of advice for the future. it's always been a favorite of mine, for several of the lines. but in the past few days, one in particular keeps running through my head.
"don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life. the most interesting people i know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives. some of the most interesting 40 year olds i know still don't."
so what if i'm not sure who i am? who cares if i haven't figured out what i want in the future? i'm still learning, everyday. if i had all the answers, what would i have to look forward to? if i'm still learning who i am, i'm still growing. and i don't want to stop growing. i don't want to become stagnant.