I can't hold on to me; wonder what's wrong with me.

[liquidspiral]

I compromised a friendship. One that I view highly important. She means a lot to me, someone I can actually spend time with in this area. I also work with her. Sunday night I told her that I didn't like being around drunk, which turns out to be something about myself. I had issues that night and I pinned them on her. I don't want to lose this friendship and sometimes things I think about in my head can escalate into things that do not actually exist. Why I acted the way I did I cannot even explain to myself but once actually getting to talk to her about this weekend it made me realize how much of an ass I actually was to her. A pot who calls the kettle black. A week ago I was laying on her couch moaning the life out of me because I was hung over worse than I had been in years. She has been doing very well with her alcohol. I have with mine also. I shouldn't try to create problems between us.

Peace and Windmill windmill for the land, turn forever hand in hand.