Come, come away from it.
Today I feel tired. I don't want to read the newspaper, I want to go to bed. Work was stressful today as I had a problem measuring the SAG on parts. I would measure it then I would measure again and get a different reading. This stressed me out. I try to do the best that I can do when I measure things, most of the time I don't seem to have a problem. Then I have to come home and see what kind of messes have been made and see what of my food has been eaten. I noticed today that my expensive red wine balsamic vinaigrette was mostly gone. It's bad enough when I can't use mustard on my sandwich I make for work because it is gone. He must think just because it is in the house it's free for the taking even after I stress how fucking anal I am about my food. I never had to be this way. I never lived with immature, disrespectful people. ...Who also know nothing about energy conservation...except the heat. I cannot complain at all there. I don't know it just bugs me. The fact he lost his job doesn't have much bearing on me either. So you lost your job because your drug dealing friend and all his friends kept you up all night. That is not my problem, I have been without a job before too. Instead of spending my fucking money on beer, I bought potatoes. I somehow remember having pot too lol. But I was able to eat my own food without having to starve. Ok now that is out of the way, what else? Uhm...
TOMORROW MY PIANO IS GETTING TUNED!!!! Screw sexual intercourse with a pitiful female, I will be pleasured in soooo many ways from now on. She hasn't been tuned in probably 10 years. I can spend an hour a day practicing and all available time during the weekends practicing. I also want to spend time in between reading stuff besides the paper. Seriously though I wish sexual urges didn't affect me, it affected my dream last night... why?? If I don't spend that whole 3 minutes jacking off, it affects me even more. Well luckily I have the power to not drink. All I have to think about is Ani's "Come Away From It". I bet sexuality is still curiosity, I should just throw the money down the drain and rent some whore and get it over with. I wonder what fellatio is like. I already discovered what a vagina tastes like and smells like and it actually is pretty gross. I really have no interest in the vagina. But her hands mouth and breasts are a different story. Actually a lap dance would probably be all I need. But for some reason I crave these things which I wish to have no part of and have never really been part of. I don't even know why I think about it now except the fact I had to masturbate earlier for no apparent reason, maybe things inside my head from being around girls I could see myself being attracted to but would rather just not care. Why is she now all of a sudden drinking water instead of soda, when all I do is drink water, and what is up with wearing PURPLE everyday so far this week. It's like my eyes totally are attracted to that, so if your wearing it I'm totally going to notice even the slightest out of the corner of my eye. It must be just coincidence.
Well I have popped a melatonin to make so I go to sleep right off and not stay away till 5am and I'm going to listen to some Delerium as I nod to neverland.
Swing baby, swing!
and jesus christ, HE DOESN'T KNOW THE FIRST THING ABOUT BEING POLITE!!!! FUCKING SLAM THOSE CUPBORDS BUDDY AND STOMP THOSE FUCKING FEET!!! ARRRRRGGGHHHH!!!
TOMORROW MY PIANO IS GETTING TUNED!!!! Screw sexual intercourse with a pitiful female, I will be pleasured in soooo many ways from now on. She hasn't been tuned in probably 10 years. I can spend an hour a day practicing and all available time during the weekends practicing. I also want to spend time in between reading stuff besides the paper. Seriously though I wish sexual urges didn't affect me, it affected my dream last night... why?? If I don't spend that whole 3 minutes jacking off, it affects me even more. Well luckily I have the power to not drink. All I have to think about is Ani's "Come Away From It". I bet sexuality is still curiosity, I should just throw the money down the drain and rent some whore and get it over with. I wonder what fellatio is like. I already discovered what a vagina tastes like and smells like and it actually is pretty gross. I really have no interest in the vagina. But her hands mouth and breasts are a different story. Actually a lap dance would probably be all I need. But for some reason I crave these things which I wish to have no part of and have never really been part of. I don't even know why I think about it now except the fact I had to masturbate earlier for no apparent reason, maybe things inside my head from being around girls I could see myself being attracted to but would rather just not care. Why is she now all of a sudden drinking water instead of soda, when all I do is drink water, and what is up with wearing PURPLE everyday so far this week. It's like my eyes totally are attracted to that, so if your wearing it I'm totally going to notice even the slightest out of the corner of my eye. It must be just coincidence.
Well I have popped a melatonin to make so I go to sleep right off and not stay away till 5am and I'm going to listen to some Delerium as I nod to neverland.
Swing baby, swing!
and jesus christ, HE DOESN'T KNOW THE FIRST THING ABOUT BEING POLITE!!!! FUCKING SLAM THOSE CUPBORDS BUDDY AND STOMP THOSE FUCKING FEET!!! ARRRRRGGGHHHH!!!