someone help please...
i dunno what to do so much pain going through my head. im getting called a poser and a wannabe everyday now, but does that make it true no. im just me, let it be people! my god. i talked to michaels friend, jamie. he is really nice. well i dont think he is michaels friend as much as ambers. he is nice though. yea anyways. im so confused so many feelings rushing to my head. im shaking im braking these things that i cant bear. i feel overwhelmed and i thought it was getting good and now look its bad and blah. i dunno what to do i dunno where to turn. no one is online, no one that i would talk to about this anyways. just seems odd i dunno ah someone help i dont even know what is wrong. god ok slow down. ok heres whats happening. we are selling this house. my dad said with in the next three months. but i just want to live here. its where i grew up its not just a house its my home, i have so many memories and emily said i made her problem mine and that i dont care that she is moving but she is all pissed cause she has to move into an apartment and she doesnt want to what is she to good for that? i dont get it i might be moving out of the town and she says ill make new friends and blah blah blah but i like my old friends i dont want new ones. and if she thinks i can make new friends how come i dont have any new friends. she doesnt see that things arent as easy for me im not as trusting cant she just help me out and comfort me and she says im too sensitive but im not i cant deal with all this and now she is mad at me or hates me or something and im going crazy because i cant breathe and i cant sleep or eat or think! i just dunno what to do i dunno where to go or who to call or what to say or if i should lay down and cry or if i should just give up and die or if i should even countinue putting myself through this pain or just hide it all like i used to. im used to pain but not this bad not right now oh god help me im sorry some one just help.
rachel
rachel