guilt
When I was a wee teenager there was this gas station me and my friends would frequent just down the road from my house. One time we went there and this girl from school was there, possibly "going out" with the son of the owner, who was also there (the son). She had kind of a reputation. Like was a kind of "bad girl." I'm browsing the drinks like always and out of nowhere she puts her arm around my shoulder and says in my ear "hey how're you doin?!" After a few beats I respond "are you drunk?" She pushes me away and says "no!!" in a disgusted tone.
I've always felt bad about that. That I assumed she was drunk or something just because she interacted with me, a stranger, and had never looked at me twice before in school. Though I'm not sure what kind of reaction she was hoping for. She was probably a damaged kid in some way and I didn't help by assuming she wasn't sober (at that time I didn't really know what drunk looked like). I can't recall her name now, but I've always felt bad about that, looking back on it. Hopefully writing it out will ease some of the guilt.
I get waves of guilt all throughout the day. My mind keeps going back to times when I've done something wrong or have been an asshole to somebody or whatever. I cycle through the same memories over and over again. Even stupid stuff I did when I was like 9. I always feel guilty. And I know it's stupid and pointless but I can't stop. Maybe writing it out will help.
I've always felt bad about that. That I assumed she was drunk or something just because she interacted with me, a stranger, and had never looked at me twice before in school. Though I'm not sure what kind of reaction she was hoping for. She was probably a damaged kid in some way and I didn't help by assuming she wasn't sober (at that time I didn't really know what drunk looked like). I can't recall her name now, but I've always felt bad about that, looking back on it. Hopefully writing it out will ease some of the guilt.
I get waves of guilt all throughout the day. My mind keeps going back to times when I've done something wrong or have been an asshole to somebody or whatever. I cycle through the same memories over and over again. Even stupid stuff I did when I was like 9. I always feel guilty. And I know it's stupid and pointless but I can't stop. Maybe writing it out will help.