I cannot wait for next semester.
When you have everything, you never really notice what you have. But the second you don't have anything, you really realize how much you had. I'm sure you know the feeling. It's generally accompanied by that deep and constant aching at the pit of your heart and that dull and lonely emptiness that fills up all the spaces where things are missing.
I miss having friends that truly loved me.
I miss those girls that could always make me smile, that were always there when I needed them. That filled in the gaps in my heart with smiles and kept all my deepest secrets, even if we did stay up too late and eat too much.
I miss that boy that actually understood me, that I could talk to about anything. That loved me unconditionally and made me the happiest I've ever been.
I miss those late night trips to wal-mart in ridiculous outfits.
I miss those late night phone calls that lasted hours on end.
I miss when things were beautiful and simple.
I wish I could go back and live through all my favorite memories on repeat.
And I know, I know. You shouldn't focus on the past, it's pointless and unhealthy and yada yada. But the present sucks right now, so the best I can do is remember the things that I love that will get me through to the next day, until I get to go back home and make more wonderful memories.
I miss having friends that truly loved me.
I miss those girls that could always make me smile, that were always there when I needed them. That filled in the gaps in my heart with smiles and kept all my deepest secrets, even if we did stay up too late and eat too much.
I miss that boy that actually understood me, that I could talk to about anything. That loved me unconditionally and made me the happiest I've ever been.
I miss those late night trips to wal-mart in ridiculous outfits.
I miss those late night phone calls that lasted hours on end.
I miss when things were beautiful and simple.
I wish I could go back and live through all my favorite memories on repeat.
And I know, I know. You shouldn't focus on the past, it's pointless and unhealthy and yada yada. But the present sucks right now, so the best I can do is remember the things that I love that will get me through to the next day, until I get to go back home and make more wonderful memories.