new york paper

[liquidjuliet]

for my own sanity i write this here. i have 12 pages. in 20 more it will be finished. i will graduate college. i will or will not have any relationship with my lady, especially after i lay it all out of what happened. i will be as honest as possible. and when it is all over, i will be a whole person again. i will go home to the springs, i will get a bullshit job. i will pay my schoolloans. i will get out of debt. i will record my record. i will get better at the guitar. i will write more songs. i will apply to the musicians institute. i will move to california in the summer.

i will let her go.even if i dont want to. even if i dont think i can. this paper will help me. because she will never tell me what she really felt. even if it was as strong as i felt it. even if it was stronger.

i will post it here so i will always be able to go back.