MAGIC MARY COMES TO ME SPEAKING WORDS OF WISDOM LET IT BE.
Achtung: For some reason it just hit me today. I don't really hurt anymore ( I always will I lost my Best friend). I miss things, but I don't hurt as much nor care. Phantom feeling. like when you lose a body part. Maybe it was the few conversations this week. Funny how, you say something on how you feel and then it get's put back in your face. a year later. Now you understand. See where I was coming from? fan club (lol) or not. Wow....I can say it took awhile. Rebirth, decay, sad, happy, done, ready to begin, I'm a piece of work, art, chaos, chaos theory, I'M PRETTY, pretty vacant, most of all I'm human and in the circuts am designed to make mistakes. I admit. Because humans don't have an instruction book. I think I'm going to be in a better place. Maybe the meds helped. maybe not. You people tell me. I dunno. Glad that Someone reached out to me and get's it. You'll never know how much that few line meant to me. You know who you are.
when I was young
I was so full of fear
I hid behind anger, held back the tears
It was me against the world
I was sure that I'd win
But the world fought back, punished me for my sins
I felt so alone
So insecure
I blamed you instead, made sure I was heard
And they tried to warn me
Of my evil ways
But I wouldn't hear what they had to say
I was wrong
Self destruction's got me again
I was wrong
I realize now that I was wrong
And I think about my loves
Well, I've had a few
Well, I'm sorry that I hurt them
Did I hurt you too?
I took what I wanted
Put my heart on the shelf
But how can you love me when you don't love yourself?
It was me against the world
I was sure that I'd win
The world fought back, punished me for my sins
And they tried to warn me
Of my evil ways
But I couldn't hear what they had to say
I was wrong
Self destruction's got me again
I grew up fast
And I grew up hard
Something was wrong from the very start
I was fighting everybody
I was fighting everything
But the only one that I hurt was me
I got society's blood running down my face
Somebody help me get outta this place
How could someone's bad luck last so long?
I'm glad I went out this weekend. Alot of people judge me based on situations. Based on my dia-tribes on this Bullshit called Live-journal. I think in a sense I changed peoples thoughts about me and maybe I thought, but was re-routed by what I thought their process was. At anyrate,
Through The black hole and revelations
I for the first time in a year think I'm going to be ok.....at least this summer.
when I was young
I was so full of fear
I hid behind anger, held back the tears
It was me against the world
I was sure that I'd win
But the world fought back, punished me for my sins
I felt so alone
So insecure
I blamed you instead, made sure I was heard
And they tried to warn me
Of my evil ways
But I wouldn't hear what they had to say
I was wrong
Self destruction's got me again
I was wrong
I realize now that I was wrong
And I think about my loves
Well, I've had a few
Well, I'm sorry that I hurt them
Did I hurt you too?
I took what I wanted
Put my heart on the shelf
But how can you love me when you don't love yourself?
It was me against the world
I was sure that I'd win
The world fought back, punished me for my sins
And they tried to warn me
Of my evil ways
But I couldn't hear what they had to say
I was wrong
Self destruction's got me again
I grew up fast
And I grew up hard
Something was wrong from the very start
I was fighting everybody
I was fighting everything
But the only one that I hurt was me
I got society's blood running down my face
Somebody help me get outta this place
How could someone's bad luck last so long?
I'm glad I went out this weekend. Alot of people judge me based on situations. Based on my dia-tribes on this Bullshit called Live-journal. I think in a sense I changed peoples thoughts about me and maybe I thought, but was re-routed by what I thought their process was. At anyrate,
Through The black hole and revelations
I for the first time in a year think I'm going to be ok.....at least this summer.