Regrets
I don't regret many things I should by my count but life is a leanring experience and I'm certainly learning. Lord knows there's people I should regret meeting, regret talking to, and regret being friends or more with, but really there's only one person I'm feeling regrets towards and one person alone.
I'm sorry you think I'm a horrible person when I did nothing to you. I'm sorry you hate me when I love you. I'm sorry that my giving you so much makes you disdain me.
I do love you. And I'm sorry you don't think that's enough. That you need material things for me to prove it when you refused to give the same back. I'm still hurt from you and I don't think you care but I do. You mattered to me and still do even if this past decade has meant little to you, it meant the world to me. I kow you'll never know that, and eventually I'll accept your cruel treatment as the norm of the world, but for now, all I feel is regret and pain. Regrets for you and for myself. I was a good person with you and yet I wasn't good enough for you it seems.
I love you and I hope your life goes well, but unless you intend to extend an olive branch to me, do not pretend this didnt' happen. You crushed me. Mind, body, soul in all. You destroyed so much with your hurtful mind games and cruel words. You gave up the right to call me friend, to smile at me, or to exchange cordial words that day when you toyed with me. I love you but I've been used too many times and I don't deserve that treatment anymore.
If you want any of those rights back, you're going to have to explain to me why you set out to hurt me in this way and you're going to have to explain to me why and how I am to know you won't do this to me again. You set me up for pain and I don't know that I can easily look past that with simply a cute smile and a wave.
I'm a person and I love you. I want the best for you. And I always have. I've been there every moment you called. I've never bailed on you or left you hanging. I've given everything to you and even if that wasn't enough for you, your actions were unjust in response to mine.
May your life be full of happy moments and lovely moments. I hope someday you'll realize what a cruel joke you played and what a loyal friend you lost. I'll be here when you realise that and when you want to make ammends, I won't play mind games with you, I won't crush you, I'll love you. Like I always have
I'm sorry you think I'm a horrible person when I did nothing to you. I'm sorry you hate me when I love you. I'm sorry that my giving you so much makes you disdain me.
I do love you. And I'm sorry you don't think that's enough. That you need material things for me to prove it when you refused to give the same back. I'm still hurt from you and I don't think you care but I do. You mattered to me and still do even if this past decade has meant little to you, it meant the world to me. I kow you'll never know that, and eventually I'll accept your cruel treatment as the norm of the world, but for now, all I feel is regret and pain. Regrets for you and for myself. I was a good person with you and yet I wasn't good enough for you it seems.
I love you and I hope your life goes well, but unless you intend to extend an olive branch to me, do not pretend this didnt' happen. You crushed me. Mind, body, soul in all. You destroyed so much with your hurtful mind games and cruel words. You gave up the right to call me friend, to smile at me, or to exchange cordial words that day when you toyed with me. I love you but I've been used too many times and I don't deserve that treatment anymore.
If you want any of those rights back, you're going to have to explain to me why you set out to hurt me in this way and you're going to have to explain to me why and how I am to know you won't do this to me again. You set me up for pain and I don't know that I can easily look past that with simply a cute smile and a wave.
I'm a person and I love you. I want the best for you. And I always have. I've been there every moment you called. I've never bailed on you or left you hanging. I've given everything to you and even if that wasn't enough for you, your actions were unjust in response to mine.
May your life be full of happy moments and lovely moments. I hope someday you'll realize what a cruel joke you played and what a loyal friend you lost. I'll be here when you realise that and when you want to make ammends, I won't play mind games with you, I won't crush you, I'll love you. Like I always have