Burn
This weekend has already been horrible and its not even close to being over yet. And its not just because i didnt get to see him this weekend..... its a littel more in depth with everyone and my family and ugh. And the fact that i didnt get to see him just adds to the general problem. Its just the constant limitations on everything with him. i get to see him when its fit for everyone, i get to talk to him as long as everyone else says we can talk. Like last night, I get barred from seeing him , and his dad give him until 945 to talk to me b/c POOR LITTLE AARON SPENT TO LONG ON THE PHONE THE NIGHT BEFORE. And he didnt call me until 905, and got off the phone at 930.... So thats bringing up a few questons in my head you know. This is MY relationship not KEVINS not SHELLYS and NOT MY PARENTS.... MINE AND AARONS, and if i want to talk ON THE PHONE with my boyfriend that i can see ONCE A MONTH, i dont see the posing problem here..... fuckers. And i really am starting to go crazy, sometimes it just feels like he doesnt care. i dont knoe, Hes sopposed to call me today, but knowing Aaron, he wont call me until 9. When he has ALL DAY to call me and he knows im upset. And i think thats whi he got off the phoe early last night. Whatever, Im not even talking about this to anyone anymore, the only reason i am writing it here is bc its a journal and i can type what i feel out faster than i can write it. ugh, im gunnah go with one question..... Have you ever cried so much that it physically HURT to cry anymore? ...... Yah, I cant take this.
-Jacqui