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i am driving myself crazy.
he is away in hawaii for two weeks and im so sure that he'll forget about me or just lose interest in me. because what do i have that is so great?
before he left we spent a few hours together and worked on a puzzle and kissed and there were fireworks and he said he'd think about me all the time and miss me and call me. and he hasnt called.
he doesnt respond to myspace messages. silly, i know.
but all i can think is that he's not going to feel the same about me when he gets back.
kenny has fucked me up. why do all relationships have to ruin my security.
i have this thought that no one could possibly like me, REALLY like me, even though the words come out of this guy's mouth.
i want to cry.
last night aidan and i stayed at Ray's house and i slept in his bed and violet came and slept next to me at some point in the early morning. it was fun.
but what if i am in over my head. because really, what do i have? i hate this feeling :(
he is away in hawaii for two weeks and im so sure that he'll forget about me or just lose interest in me. because what do i have that is so great?
before he left we spent a few hours together and worked on a puzzle and kissed and there were fireworks and he said he'd think about me all the time and miss me and call me. and he hasnt called.
he doesnt respond to myspace messages. silly, i know.
but all i can think is that he's not going to feel the same about me when he gets back.
kenny has fucked me up. why do all relationships have to ruin my security.
i have this thought that no one could possibly like me, REALLY like me, even though the words come out of this guy's mouth.
i want to cry.
last night aidan and i stayed at Ray's house and i slept in his bed and violet came and slept next to me at some point in the early morning. it was fun.
but what if i am in over my head. because really, what do i have? i hate this feeling :(