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Ok, so here's the low-down. This morning, I thought my face was going to explode. I spent the entire night suffering and gagging through interrupted sleep. I woke up, and my throat was killing me... my sinuses were clogged, and my nose was draining. I needed an ENT- pronto. Well, I guess it eventually solved itself, but for the timebeing, I went to school (I very nearly skipped...) and I sounded like I was in a barrel... we had Student Activity Period today, which means that basically, we didn't have to go to any classes from 11-12. I could've slept for another 3 hours.... (crap!) but I didn't.. so I rushed and made the agenda for the meeting that I wasn't going to be able to attend, because people seem to think they can just change the meeting times without consulting the other officers for their schedules... and I met Ben and Jessica at the Chinese place, and I was thrilled, because I kept my control, and brought a lunch as opposed to eating out, thusly- saving money AND cutting the calories... and on a sidenote: I wore a skirt to church yesterday that only two weeks ago, was bordering too tight, and yesterday, it was about to fall off me.. I was ecstatic. Even though I don't notice a difference physically, if my clothes are getting looser, then... HECK YA! So, I went back to Jazz, and once again, I was the only one singing alto... the girl next to me.. she sings alright, but she constantly sings soprano... and it really really irritates me.. she's a very sweet girl... kinda quiet, but it bugs the crap out of me that she won't listen to me when I'm sitting right next to her. So then I dropped a book by Mrs. Rudd's (Debbie's) office, because I told her I'd lend her a book I love... and I was on my way out the door, when Jared calls me, and tells me they switched the meeting to 2... so that meant I had to haul tail back over to the Student Center... so I did just that, and suffered through the meeting.. but I needed to go early because I had a DDS appt. at 3. As it were, I was 10 minutes late, but it was ok, I was the only one there, and they took me right back. I then booked it home, and changed clothes, and headed out to my third interview with Sprint... and I suppose it went pretty well... he had me formally fill out an application, and asked my availability, and hours, and all that.. and then he asked if I'd be available for another fourth interview tomorrow with the other store manager... :::sighs:::: Well, I'm geting tired of all this.. I've never gone for more than one interview anywhere. So, I came home, and picked up Leigha, and we went shopping for some new khaki pants... to no avail. We came home, watched tv, and now I'm milling about on my compie. Yea. haha.
Well, if I may... I'm going to run a bit of a tangent here,.. and I may, because after all, this is MY journal... At the "Politics for Dummies" session this morning... I was sitting with Ben, and Jared, and Cristy, and John Michael... and when I sat down, Jared looked right at me, and said, "You look really pretty today..." which normally, I would have gotten all tangled up about.. and it would have made my day... but not today. It was weird because I felt so horrible.. I was surprised I was recognizable, really.. lol. ...but it made me think more on the fact that, the only real attraction Jared has to me is physical. Apparently I, in some way, stimulate him in ways other females don't... but I fear that it's nothing more than hormones. I am so much more than a physical entity, and sometimes, I think he sees that.. and other times... I don't. He's really been very mean lately.. it sorta hurts... but I must keep reminding myself that that's what Jared does. We have meaningful, in-depth conversations, and then the next day, it's sex comments every 5 seconds. Not that I don't like a bit of humor in that region, but I was so close to getting deeper into knowing him, and who he is... and it was just a rapid descent off the side of the cliff. It's so random, too. :::Sigh::: ...and I suppose it's mutual... he ignites me in ways I haven't found in anyone else, however, he confuses the hell out of me. I suppose that's what most relationships entail. Oh well. I guess it's meant to be this way...