Thoughts
I am overly willing to do things for friends/loves that I don't want to do. Things I agree to, or say that I can handle, but in the end just can't. I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings. I don't want it to seem like I have changed my mind. I want to make as many people as happy as possible and therefore will, at times, make myself miserable.
Then once I am miserable I let down that weight I was attempting to hold up, but didn't want, and it hurts others.
Why would you want to make yourself miserable?
Because I don't want to let anyone down, or hurt anyone's feelings.
I have to say stop at times, call it quits, and just say no to situations I know I just can not deal with.
I am a very lucky + intuitive person. I run down a check list when I see a situation or instance come up and stack blocks for every check mark. I keep stacking these blocks to build the solution or uncover the truth about something until I run into something I can't prove or check mark.
usually at this point I take a leap of faith, make an assumption that I believe is most like true, and stick a block in there to continue check marking the list. If too many assumptions are made I don't follow through with it.
So looking back on my life, I was able to almost always do this... and I would say... have a 90% success rating. Something high enough to where I figured It was worth constantly using and depending on.
Till today where I began questioning if that 10% failure was worth it... Assumption... you know...
I felt I had this ability or gift... whether it be luck or what have you... so I took it on myself to be responsible for others... to stay that one step ahead in an attempt to help them.
Probably why I do things I don't want to do... or say I can handle things I just can't...
I don't want to let people down.
What a drama, maybe I could write about the fall of a super hero.
Well thats enough ranting for today, I have sorted out my thoughts like I wanted to.
All of you have a nice day.
Then once I am miserable I let down that weight I was attempting to hold up, but didn't want, and it hurts others.
Why would you want to make yourself miserable?
Because I don't want to let anyone down, or hurt anyone's feelings.
I have to say stop at times, call it quits, and just say no to situations I know I just can not deal with.
I am a very lucky + intuitive person. I run down a check list when I see a situation or instance come up and stack blocks for every check mark. I keep stacking these blocks to build the solution or uncover the truth about something until I run into something I can't prove or check mark.
usually at this point I take a leap of faith, make an assumption that I believe is most like true, and stick a block in there to continue check marking the list. If too many assumptions are made I don't follow through with it.
So looking back on my life, I was able to almost always do this... and I would say... have a 90% success rating. Something high enough to where I figured It was worth constantly using and depending on.
Till today where I began questioning if that 10% failure was worth it... Assumption... you know...
I felt I had this ability or gift... whether it be luck or what have you... so I took it on myself to be responsible for others... to stay that one step ahead in an attempt to help them.
Probably why I do things I don't want to do... or say I can handle things I just can't...
I don't want to let people down.
What a drama, maybe I could write about the fall of a super hero.
Well thats enough ranting for today, I have sorted out my thoughts like I wanted to.
All of you have a nice day.