and yet, again.. smile appears.. after so much pain
I really believe that the sun will Always come out tomorrow.. Yeah.. that might sound kind of gay.. but I've learned to teach myself that when I'm miserable, just think.. It could always get worse.. I mean.. sometime soon I'm gonna be thinking... Dude.. Life is just too dern short.. I wasted like.. 3 days out of my life being sad over something I could have delt w/ differently.. like.. taking a walk outside on a beautiful day or throwing rocks in a pond. I know that might sound dumb, but doing stuff like that really makes me feel better. In MY opinion.. I believe that our Heavenly Father has put something on this world for each and every one of us for when we're sad. He doesn't like to see us sad, and so he puts something out there to give us strength and let us know that he's there for us Whenever we may need him. Even the little things calm me down. Like... flowers and birds. I don't know.. it's kinda funny and....... Weird if you ask me, haha.. When I'm sad, and I go outside, and you see birds .. or butterflys.. I just think.. "They seem so happy.. and they're just so beautiful.. The way they move... and how great it must be to be able to fly... just to feel so free like that... " Gosh, haha. So far in this entry I sound like one of those really really REALLY Obsessively happy people that just come up to you when you're having one of those REALLY bad days and are just all "omg.. isn't the day just so Wonderful?" And you're like.. "yeah yeah yeah.. Get out of my face woman before I hammer you into the ground." haha. WHY is it that when you're having a bad day.. it just ticks you off when you see someone else having a Great one? haha. Weird. Humanity.. tisk tisk tisk.
Anyways.. me and Jeremy are okay now.. but what's weird is.. we're okay.. and we haven't even spoken directly.. I wish we could have just fixed it all ourselves.. but I mean, at least we're settled now, and that Makes me happier than anything! :P I really hope I get to go to Tennessee this summer. I think that being able to be with him, and see him, and hang out with him, will only bring us closer. Okay.. yes.. I'm scared.. but I'm willing to take this risk for him... :| Is that good... or bad? I'm thinking good.. but then again.. I'm not what you say.. an Expert on this particular... if you know what I mean. But seriously.. I think it will make us closer.. I can't wait to fall in love.. I don't believe in stopping love dead in its tracks.. which is why I get angry w/ myself every time I try and push it away, cuz I'm scared. But I mean.. isn't that just pure Human Nature? See something dangerous coming your way.. Try and avoid it?
Anyways.. me and Jeremy are okay now.. but what's weird is.. we're okay.. and we haven't even spoken directly.. I wish we could have just fixed it all ourselves.. but I mean, at least we're settled now, and that Makes me happier than anything! :P I really hope I get to go to Tennessee this summer. I think that being able to be with him, and see him, and hang out with him, will only bring us closer. Okay.. yes.. I'm scared.. but I'm willing to take this risk for him... :| Is that good... or bad? I'm thinking good.. but then again.. I'm not what you say.. an Expert on this particular... if you know what I mean. But seriously.. I think it will make us closer.. I can't wait to fall in love.. I don't believe in stopping love dead in its tracks.. which is why I get angry w/ myself every time I try and push it away, cuz I'm scared. But I mean.. isn't that just pure Human Nature? See something dangerous coming your way.. Try and avoid it?