Feeling Down
I've been feeling so down lately. A friend told me I should write down my thoughts, just to get them out. I'm not sure how this is going to help.
I sometimes feel as if there are two souls living in this one body. One is strong and confident. I admire him. The other is me. I fear confrontation, and rejection. I fear being hurt. Having nothing to lose and everything to gain? This fragile mind just refuses to see my life as such. I surely have nothing to lose and everything to gain. But if I gain, then I'll have something to lose. I probably don't make sense. I feel the tension grow inside me, and sometimes I wish I could just break down and let it all flow out, but my eyes refuse to release even a single tear. There are no tears in me, only decay. The remains of a soul that once was.
The real me was lost long ago. This is all that remains.
I sometimes feel as if there are two souls living in this one body. One is strong and confident. I admire him. The other is me. I fear confrontation, and rejection. I fear being hurt. Having nothing to lose and everything to gain? This fragile mind just refuses to see my life as such. I surely have nothing to lose and everything to gain. But if I gain, then I'll have something to lose. I probably don't make sense. I feel the tension grow inside me, and sometimes I wish I could just break down and let it all flow out, but my eyes refuse to release even a single tear. There are no tears in me, only decay. The remains of a soul that once was.
The real me was lost long ago. This is all that remains.