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Its like..having a teenager son that starts to get pissed off at you and denies that you are his parents. You put so much time, money, and love into helping him become who he is, and he turns on you. He denies that he loves you and wishes he would never see you again. After all you've done to make him into something decent he denies that you did it, and never recognizes what you've done. You put so much into it and you get so little out. Its a waste. But I guess in the long run, after the son grows up and matures, he starts to realize what the parent did for him and how much time, money, and energy his parents put into him to make him decent. He sees that he really did love his parents and that he was wrong to not make it known earlier. I guess the whole "you don't know how much you love/need something until you loose that certin thing" idea also falls into place here. I've put so much time, effort, and love into this and I feel that I have gotten next to nothing in return. I don't know..Who does.
Music has been a huge part of my life since the start of this year, and i hope it will become a bigger part. I've realized what i've been missing and i've decided that I want to learn to play an instrument. What that instrument is, I know not yet.
All the little small things are starting to piss me off again..like they usually do at the end of a year. Every day, Ever class seems to be exactly the same. All the "jokes" the kids say are becomeing to comman and are way past the annoying stage. It seems like i've been walking the same path for decads and only just begun to realize it. I need a huge change, and I hope me getting a car/license in late June/Early July will bring upon that change. If it won't, I have no clue what will, but I hope whatever it is will come soon. I'm sure the summer break will help some for sure. I won't have to sit thought the same boring classes all day nor will I have to hear the same people make "jokes" in class.
Only one more week until easter vacation. I have nothing planed, what a surprise, so its probably going to be a boring long week. But atleast I won't be in school so that will be one postive aspect of the vaction.
Get to go to a dance with Meagan tomorrow night. Elan Cotillion thing. Hope its fun, or, atleast as much fun as it can be when they only play rap music. WHERES THE METAL?!?!?!
Music has been a huge part of my life since the start of this year, and i hope it will become a bigger part. I've realized what i've been missing and i've decided that I want to learn to play an instrument. What that instrument is, I know not yet.
All the little small things are starting to piss me off again..like they usually do at the end of a year. Every day, Ever class seems to be exactly the same. All the "jokes" the kids say are becomeing to comman and are way past the annoying stage. It seems like i've been walking the same path for decads and only just begun to realize it. I need a huge change, and I hope me getting a car/license in late June/Early July will bring upon that change. If it won't, I have no clue what will, but I hope whatever it is will come soon. I'm sure the summer break will help some for sure. I won't have to sit thought the same boring classes all day nor will I have to hear the same people make "jokes" in class.
Only one more week until easter vacation. I have nothing planed, what a surprise, so its probably going to be a boring long week. But atleast I won't be in school so that will be one postive aspect of the vaction.
Get to go to a dance with Meagan tomorrow night. Elan Cotillion thing. Hope its fun, or, atleast as much fun as it can be when they only play rap music. WHERES THE METAL?!?!?!