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same as it ever was. filling time up with being only unproductive. im not feeling worried, but i think a lack of excitement.getting sort of hurt feelings over things that are unimportant. i had a constant blah feeling, thinking last night, 'maybe now it will go away'. i drove home not satisfied or unsatisfied. playing the same scenerios in my head that normally are nightmereish, and i felt nothing, no tears building. thinking of leaving for a change and thinking, maybe nothing will change.i am calm, not very confused, i dont feel at all nervouse. i feel like i can see exactly what will happen and i am going through with it anyways.im anxiouse for a new sort of experience.i hope somthing wonderful surprises me.i think i've deffinately made up my mind, but its still hard to tell. i think today i'll start packing.