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[lipsticksmears]

no, its just humourouse. i dont know, looking back in here, i mean its been here for years.this time last year being three months pregnant, feeling so uneasy and secreative.this time this year feels so much better.'those numbers look scary to me'. not wanting to think about like 6 months of our relationship. its mutual, and sad and funny.and anyways, like i said, this time feels so much better. my stomach could go down a little more in my opinion, i feel great. i am content with my art. adri is smiling all the time. all insecurities are gone.besides the back and forth ones with my art. and i guess back and forth ones with other things, but mostly, hardly there.wearing skirts with no tights. i had strange dreams last night, just lately, well just always i guess.the easiest thing i ever did. adri looks past nothingness often like he is lookng at a human, its sort of eerie. it feels like some sort of foreign presence. its just strange, not uncomfortable, sort of exciting.so many pretty girl voices, keep singing! quoting ursula. i thought it was funny. we used to sing it to eachother.
it discusted me so much, having nothing to do with me, oh maybe i know why. eww.you know i love you so much polaroid. i let him keep them and i want them badly. to bad you cant just split them in half and both have thin versions. im feeling sleepy and i went to sleep earlier than normal. feeling settled. satisfied, well, yesterdays outside weather was not at all freezing cold, warm! we didnt even need hats, i mean i didnt even need to put adri in a hat. i'd like to go on a bikeride today. i live in so many hills, i want to go on a flat bike ride though.