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i don't even know what i'm trying to say right now
all i know is that this was the best weekend i've had since i've been here and not one minute of it was spent here.
all i know is that when i'm mad at you i love you even more
i am still wearing this flannel shirt because it smells like you, it will always make me think about being in the middle of nowhere with you, holding you. sleeping next to you, sitting on the side of the road at dawn, whispering and rubbing my face on the scruff of yours; it makes me feel less far away from you even though i feel far away from everything, everyone
you won't even read this and that's actually ok with me.
for the first time i don't care if i get anything back.
we said goodbye about 2 hours ago
and i just realized how much i need you in my life.
you made me feel alive for the first time in a month;
my eyes get wet when i let myself think about it
all i know is that this was the best weekend i've had since i've been here and not one minute of it was spent here.
all i know is that when i'm mad at you i love you even more
i am still wearing this flannel shirt because it smells like you, it will always make me think about being in the middle of nowhere with you, holding you. sleeping next to you, sitting on the side of the road at dawn, whispering and rubbing my face on the scruff of yours; it makes me feel less far away from you even though i feel far away from everything, everyone
you won't even read this and that's actually ok with me.
for the first time i don't care if i get anything back.
we said goodbye about 2 hours ago
and i just realized how much i need you in my life.
you made me feel alive for the first time in a month;
my eyes get wet when i let myself think about it