here it goes.

[lipsticks_to_me]

i'm going to do this over the internet because i can't remember the last time i talked to you in person and i would rather not start right now. so lauren, i just need to say that i wouldn't have been bothered one bit if you had approached me on wednesday and told me that you had a problem with me. but instead, i had to hear about the things you weren't saying to my face that weren't even true from several different people. i don't think you know how it feels to have a group of people turn their heads when you walk by and sneer, and honestly, i don't understand why you all of sudden care about my personal life or how you could even compare it to your own. i feel like i'm in middle school all over again and i don't know if you were expecting me to just pretend that it's alright, but it isn't. so please stop gossiping about me if you haven't already.
maybe if you had known about my recent circumstances things would be different; it's been a really rough week for me. so now i'm apologizing if this makes things awkward or if you are still angry with me for one reason or another.
the truth is, i'm not upset, and i hope you aren't either- because i've let it go.