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for once i think i'll write something honest in here.
i think i have become way too comfortable with my current state.
i know im not going to school for what i want to be doing, ideally
however, i love my friends, and the comfort they provide.
i'm feeling very torn, with absolutly no direction and no one to really discuss it with.
i just feel like there is nothing in my life that i'm controlling
i dont ever take something and make it my own
and the one thing that i find that i do control
well, is self-destructive to say the least
and the only thing that i feel like i can dictate
and i need it.
sounds like drugs.
obviously it isn't.
i just wish i had someone to talk to about it all.
not someone to tell me what i'm doing wrong
which is inevitably what will happen
i think i have become way too comfortable with my current state.
i know im not going to school for what i want to be doing, ideally
however, i love my friends, and the comfort they provide.
i'm feeling very torn, with absolutly no direction and no one to really discuss it with.
i just feel like there is nothing in my life that i'm controlling
i dont ever take something and make it my own
and the one thing that i find that i do control
well, is self-destructive to say the least
and the only thing that i feel like i can dictate
and i need it.
sounds like drugs.
obviously it isn't.
i just wish i had someone to talk to about it all.
not someone to tell me what i'm doing wrong
which is inevitably what will happen