14 years

[lipsthatkiss]

I don't really know what's going on with me and my writing. I've been in this weird emotional place eveytime I write and they never turn out the way I hope. But...I'm still able to get stuff out. I feel like my writing is evolving. I hope it settles down soon. lol

It's Been 14 Years (Fragmented letter to a past love)

It's been 14 years

14 years of family, friends, and lovers.
14 years of accomplishments
14 years of mistakes
14 years since that drunk driving bitch...
took you from me.

She took you.

I cried so hard and so long.
Hoping that each tear would be
payment enough to get you back.
That maybe Death...
would feel some kind of remorse,
and bring you home to me.
Warm and whole to me.
A smile on your face for me.

But the tears kept coming.
And you were still........

I smelled your cologne today.
14 years later...
and it still made me cry...
I miss you.

I met someone.
I think you'd like him.
He doesn't look anything like you.
But...
there's something about the way he kisses...
like you.

The way his hand
folds with my hand.
Look down to see our hands,
clasped together.
I think I love him.

I told him about you.
My first love.
my first loss.
He was very sweet
and held me
while I told him your story.

I guess,
I'm asking for your blessing.
I want to know that it's ok.
That you won't be mad at me.

(a silent breeze comes through the window...and I can smell your colonge again)

Thank you