this american life
Nick and I broke up a few days ago- it's weird to be on my own. I haven't been single since I started dating...seven years ago. I think it's just too tempting for me to be around Nick and I just feel myself sliding back to where I don't want to go. If I'm really honest about it, I think it just wasn't goin to work with all the resentment we have toward each other. He hated me for leaving Philly in the first place and I hated him for not getting clean when I did. I don't know- it's all such a mess.
Every day I wake up and I just want to roll over and go back to sleep. What's the point? The point is yoga. grocery shopping. calling CCP for the millionth time. Reading.This American Life. I just have to keep doing the little things because if I don't- I'll lose everything and I'll be lost. At the end of the day though, that's a blessing. Beth gets home and usually Heather will come over and we'll all have a couple drinks and bitch about everything until it's too late to stay awake.
Nick and I wrote this song called 'girl chose the radio' and it was about my infatuation with This American Life (the radio show on NPR.) He thought it was bougeois and refused to listen to it, but my favorite thing to do is have a glass of wine and listen to This American Life at five. No one can disturbe me between five and six.
So he wrote this song about how I chose the radio over talking to him. It's weird- because in a strange way I guess I did. I choose this life. The boring one with predictability and the few excitements that I love and cherish over the exciting one. this IS my american life.
if anyone is interested in the song, i'll link you to the website it's posted on. you don't have to wait for it to load.
http://drop.io/ncolgan
Every day I wake up and I just want to roll over and go back to sleep. What's the point? The point is yoga. grocery shopping. calling CCP for the millionth time. Reading.This American Life. I just have to keep doing the little things because if I don't- I'll lose everything and I'll be lost. At the end of the day though, that's a blessing. Beth gets home and usually Heather will come over and we'll all have a couple drinks and bitch about everything until it's too late to stay awake.
Nick and I wrote this song called 'girl chose the radio' and it was about my infatuation with This American Life (the radio show on NPR.) He thought it was bougeois and refused to listen to it, but my favorite thing to do is have a glass of wine and listen to This American Life at five. No one can disturbe me between five and six.
So he wrote this song about how I chose the radio over talking to him. It's weird- because in a strange way I guess I did. I choose this life. The boring one with predictability and the few excitements that I love and cherish over the exciting one. this IS my american life.
if anyone is interested in the song, i'll link you to the website it's posted on. you don't have to wait for it to load.
http://drop.io/ncolgan