Babies && deaths
I never wrote bout this.
I never talked about this.
But me having a miscarrge was one of the worst losses i have ever went threw.
I want a child so bad but yet i didnt want a child.
I would be pregant right now if it wasnt for the drugs i did trying to
pretend i wasnt. When i knew in the back of my head. but i knew how hard you
would take it. so i just pushed the thought out.
I want to get married && have a baby.
I guess this leads me to us.
I dont know whats happening to us.
the
good days are great but they seem to be few and far between.. welll.. in a
sence.
i feel like i keep getting pushed away. so i keep building up more
walls..
i guess now im just waiting for the second death....
but ill keep praying for a miracle.
because some how... we have always been able to work threw it....